20150402
♥ What's happening to me?
First of all, let the lyrics say.
你可不可以爱我 可不可以想我
虽然我对自己没有一点的把握
别害怕我难过 告诉我你真实的感受
至少忐忑 能告一段落
你可不可以爱我 可不可以看我
虽然看或不看我依然失魂落魄
成全不是美德 拒绝也不是一种罪过
你能给我 快乐还是寂寞
I am not sure which is worse. Desperately trying to get someone to notice you, or desperately holding on to hopes when you know there aren't none.
This is not me. I need to find myself back. I do not wait around for someone just to get a bit more chance to interact, even though I know the chances are not proportionate to the time. Or maybe this is too myself. The bit of myself that I buried too long back, that is awakened. That, is so... unfamiliar.