20120603
♥ A night full of thoughts.
When it is all quiet at night, you tend to think a lot. And let your mind drift and wander around.
And then, it goes back to that little portion that you have hidden well in your heart and locked it away and hoped no one ever touches it. But facts don't change, and memories don't fade (that fast), so you are bound to think of it once in a while.
And whenever I think of these, I realise, that there are some people, who will stay in your heart no matter what. They may not have stayed in your lives, but they tend to and love to pop up once in a while, in your mind, to prove that they still exist.
I get that sort of feeling everytime I see certain people. It's a kind of feeling I want to forget and kick away, but it hasn't proved to be very effective after all these years. And somehow, we just get pulled together by some unknown forces. It sucks to have too much mutual friends in this case. Anyone and everyone can remind me of you.
And if you (one of the certain people) ever see this (which I believe you never will), that kind of guilt and mistrust, and that pair of eyes telling me that everything is over, I cannot forget up till this date. When I think back, I thought, if I have done all that I could, then it's fine. But it suddenly dawned on me that, I haven't done anything, except verbal confirmation. But words are seldom truthful, and people do eat back on their words. Maybe that is why. But understanding this 5 years down the road, I don't think we can do anything anymore.
In life, we disappoint people. We are also disappointed by people. I am not too sure if it is karma at work, but to the one I disappointed, and the one who disappointed me, I believe you will still remain in my mind for the next few years, until time washes it all away.
20120602
♥ Life of a working adult.
I think it has been a long while since I updated. To my disappearing readers (if they were even existent in the first place), I am temporarily back.
Ever since the end of exams and the start of PA (which has been a surprisingly 4 weeks already), I haven't found the time and energy and urge to update.
The life of a working adult. Squeezing on the MRT to and fro work. And then also, pondering if this kind of life is really what you want for your next few decades.
Honestly, if I were to give an opinion, I think I quite like it this way. Now, at least.
But I don't think I want to think that far. 2 years more to graduation, which isn't an exactly long time I know. But I guess at different stages of your life, you have different goals and opinions. For now, I think maybe it is just important to enjoy what I am doing and treasure what I have. Either working or studying, I just will like to experience it all.
Because right now, I have not much pressure yet. No financial burden, no need to support a family, so I am still free to do a lot of things. When it comes to a point in life that I have to hang on to a job just to make ends meet, maybe I will speak differently.
Okay, the above paragraphs do not make any sense together. Read them separately then.
I am glad to say, no matter the job scope or the people here, I really still kind of like what I am doing. And this is really a rare chance. I always know that your colleagues impact your worklife a lot, and I am glad that I find some like-minded people here which I hope to keep as friends even after this internship ends.
Which also reminded me of my time back in Gucci. Summer sales are here again! If you do not already know, now you do! I have been asked if I wanted to work again, but because of internship, I haven't been able to do it. Thinking about it alone brings back much wonderful memories. And I believe I will be visiting them soon.
I believe I am quite happy with life now. :)
