20100129
♥
After working for a week (to be exact, 3.5 days), I've some realisations:
1. I'm really not suited for admin job.
2. Even if I've to do an admin job, I've to be like my colleagues : can run up and down and not sit at my desk the whole day.
3. I'm glad that there's no office politics over here where I am working.
4. TGIF!
Really! How long have I not looked forward to Fridays so much? It's like back to the times where I'm a student. Just that I get to wake up later, but I go home later too luh. Just that it costs me lots to travel around. Just that I've to worry about what to wear and stuff. Just that I can wear my fav heels, put on my fav earrings, wear my fav bangle and stuff. Just that... I'm earning money! :D
Welcome to the adults world! If not for the money and maybe to kill time & to gain some work experience, I would love to lag around at home. Thinking of what to wear is tiring, esp when I always take a long time to dress up. But actually, that gives me more excuses to get clothes! :D Worst part of work : having to lunch alone. I tried it on Wednesday and thank gawd, I found a lunch buddy at work! (: Her face is freaking small though, which really makes me so jealous. She's really outspoken and she totally reminds me of Debbie haha.
I really hope to go back to school soon (in this case, university). In fact, I wish I will stop growing. Everyone thinks about this at some point in time right? Growing up means shouldering a lot of responsibilities. Sometimes, we cannot even talk carefreely anymore. It's not about speaking the wrong thing, it's like awkwardness and all sorts of stuff.
Anyway, I want meetups! Now that I've a job (though it's a short 1/2 months thing and I've to jobhunt again soon), I can afford to meet up! Yay all those meetups that have been pushed back for months and some, years, haha.
20100126
♥ Where do I start?
Sometimes, I have so much I want to say to you, but I don't know where to start.
Sometimes, not speaking does not mean not caring.
Sometimes, I do things that I don't really want to do.
If you ever read this, this isn't just yet another cold war that we are going through. How many cold wars, how many quarrels we had previously, but we always patched up? I read through my diary. I said, I'm glad for the recent quarrel because I felt that we are closer again. And I truly meant every word I say.
I don't ignore people just because we're in a war - I'm not that childish anymore. And it is nothing about pride and face and stuff. To me, a relationship of any sort requires effort from both parties - I've learnt these over the years. The previous time I did not speak to me, the reason was because I do not want to be the one giving in all the time. Sometimes, there might not be a clear right or wrong - we are equally at fault. And I felt that if I were to continue giving in, will you realise where you've gone wrong?
For this time, I'm utterly disappointed in you. However pessismistic and whatever not you are, you can doubt yourself, you can doubt the situation isn't going to turn any better, but you've no right to doubt that I do not treasure our friendship. And if this kind of doubt continues to persist, how do we continue on from here?
There are things I wouldn't tell you.
There are things I wish to tell you but do not know how to bring it across to you.
There are things that, somehow somewhat, I just cannot tell you.
Because the world does not only have you and me, I've to put into consideration the feelings of the people around us too.
But that does not mean that you mean little to me. All the 'you make me feel significant' things come from deep within my heart.
20100124
♥ Ups and downs.
Quite a lot of things happen in the last few days of this week, hence the lack of time to update. I will do a quick summary and everything yeah.
On friday, I've a whole day of stuff. Woke up real early at 8am haha. Okay I know that's not real early. Most people probably would have started work by then while I am still lazing in bed. But anyway, accompanied Peisi to a few job interviews. I told you, jobs are damn hard to get =X Then I went to meet my mummy and sister to go shopping at Bugis. Woah I am really hating shopping at Bugis! It's like I cannot try almost everything, irritating! Then the long awaited meetup with Antonio Zhangbei and Chaiying :D
Meetups are always fun and I really enjoyed myself though we just did brainless stuff like eating, chatting, catching up on one other's lives, discussing about army life, going arcade and playing a rather calm game: photohunt, camwhoring. And the highlight of the night was that Antonio drove to meet us and hence, I insisted that he drove us home! :D It was an awesome ride, rather smooth and not bumpy, except for that few times when he was playing around on the road. Besides the initial shock (because he tried to leave the carpark through the wrong lane and had to reverse back) and the occasional fooling around, I thought it's really a wonderful ride! And the feeling that a friend drove you home is totally different from your parents driving you home and stuff. Anyway, to summarise it up, I definitely would arrange more meetups so that Antonio can drive me around :P
Then reached home at 10plus cause we were attempting to take jump shots below my flat. Tired and stuff and the next day, I forced myself awake at about 930am and left for 4H chalet at 11plus. It was just like any other chalet but meeting up and seeing the few familiar faces again was great! :D A pity I wouldn't want to go midnight cycling and wouldn't want to give in again so I went home after the BBQ. I reek of the BBQ smell till now I think eww.
So far, that's the happy part. When I was happy-ing away, Lissya messaged me and told me that LG Lollipop is out. You know, the phone that I've waited for for 7 months. And then recently I just got a LG new chocolate (slider version). I bought it cause the phone that I wanted was out of stock and who knows that LG Lollipop will be out so soon?! I was planning to forget about it but I see LG Lollipop on newspapers, when I walk past handphone shops etc etc. I am really tempted to buy it. I know being an econs student, the opportunity cost is too high and stuff. Yesterday night, I was thinking that I've to give up the phone I've waited for for 7 months, I secretly drop a few tears. It's so lame to cry over a phone but yeah. I will see how things go.
And once again, I'm jobless. Don't ask me what happened to my previous job, but just tell me if you've any job recommendations! That's all bye!
20100119
♥
I was just watching Autumn's Concerto just now. Haha I can only say Peisi really recommends good shows! :D It's a really awesome show. And I think Vanness is so MAN inside. Okay pardon me, the craze will go off after some time. Isn't it normal to go crazy about the male lead? It is right, or is it just me? HAHA anyway really good show.
And... They mention something about the Little Mermaid inside. Which hit me really hard. Ariel the little mermaid, went through so much for the prince. She gave up her voice, she turned into human, with the risk of becoming foam once the prince gets married with another lady or something. She saved the prince when he fell into the sea. She hid behind the stones when she heard someone else coming. The prince woke up, saw a princess, and thought that she was the one who saved him. Sad huh. Undoubtedly, I cried while watching the drama again.
Maybe it's all the twists that make life memorable. I really really love the little mermaid and I thought maybe it's because of the regret. The regret that the prince chose the princess instead of the little mermaid. All these imperfections in life that make true love seems so distant etc. that makes fairytales so captivating. Sometimes, I think we don't need a happy ending. I think... we just need to feel like we've lived our life to the fullest, even though the ending might not be satisfactory, even though it might not be what you want in the end.
20100116
♥ The uglier side.
You know all things on earth have two sides right, like a coin. And I think I keep seeing the uglier side of people these days.
That day, I saw a young boy about 9 or 10. When the MRT door opened, he dashed into the train and snatched a seat and said to his mum: ' See luh you so slow, no more seats already." I thought we're supposed to let people out before going in, and then we have to give up seats to those who need it more, like old people and pregnant ladies. I really wonder what the younger generation will be like next time, and they don't seem to understand how to respect people and basic courtesy and stuff.
That day, I saw an old lady, okay maybe not that old but 60plus. She dyed her hair so her hair was still brown instead of grey. But she looked 60 or so and she wasn't really able to keep her balance while the MRT train moved but just because she didn't have grey/white hair, no one gave up the seat to her. But I'm sure people can see that she's an elderly, just that they use her brown hair as an excuse to continue sitting. I am guilty of that sometimes too, and I'm utterly disappointed with myself at times.
Today, I saw a guy. He was out with his parents shopping so I was like aww, what a filial guy. And the next minute, when his mum hooked his arm, maybe he thought it was stupid or something I don't know, but he HIT HER ARM AWAY and gave that disgusted look. I mean hey, you can tell her gently that you don't like it right. You don't need to hit her arm away right.
Today again, I went to some place for lunch. That place does not charge service charge so I was like telling my mum they don't charge service charge because we have to do almost everything ourselves, like queueing up and ordering and stuff that's why. But I think servers in restaurants who don't charge service charge have really bad attitude. Just because they don't charge me for service does not mean that they can give me bad service. First, the lady did not give me plates so I asked her for it. And she brought me two clean ones but a really dirty one, I mean you shouldn't even pass any customer something that dirty right, it just spoils the impression. And I kindly asked her to change it and she gave that 'you're so troublesome' look. Then, she cleared away dishes without asking for permission. I mean it's like duh obviously you've to clear it after I finished but you've to at least ask right. Anyone who worked in the F&B industry before knows that you've to say 'May I clear your plates for you please?' or at least make a hand signal to them to let them know you're clearing their plate and not just take it and walk away. MYGOSH I gave her a black face throughout my meal.
Maybe no one is perfect but I think the least we can do, is to try to be perfect. I hope I see the better side of people more and stop seeing the uglier side. ARGH
20100115
♥ -
Kbox with Peisi Lilin Shuyi was awesome! :D Yay more k sessions okay! Haha HEADVOICE. Ohman. Anyway, Kbox has some really good deals on Monday nights, but those working on Tuesday obviously cannot. ):
I wanted to post a really nice lyrics here but I forgot the song. So okay, I shall post another very nice lyrics song. Ohman somehow I cannot.
Anyway pimples are growing on my forehead wth. I feel LSE coming to me HAHA. Ohman I keep making fun of SML :X Oh yeah I shall type something to make myself feel better.
Lizhu: a really good QM who is careful, keen on practising new steps despite time constraints, responsible, froggy (fishy ly wrote this i bet), the other half of me (i'm still interested who wrote this!), has interesting online games, outgoing, wide network of friends, smiles a lot, hardworking, she has been doing well as a QM though it is new to her, very humourous sometimes, pays a lot effort to learn and clarify steps, very sweet, had interesting stories to share, really thoughtful, cute, hardworking, friendly, optimistic, cheerful, always laughing, she helps a lot when needed, a responsible quarter mistress, pretty good at making jokes, lovely, very sociable, mentally strong, very careful and sensitive (smses others to show her care), approachable, frank in what she thinks, responsible (13-step SOP!), easy to work with, proactive, trusting, amicable, always offers help, she always thinks of others, fun to chat with, extremely responsible and always does her part promptly, a good friend and hardworking dancer, always gives good suggestions for improvement, she has a beautiful smile
ALL IN ALL : her lively spirit helps to lighten the mood.
I hereby thank Gwen Hwarng for compiling these things up into a little note. I read it whenever I feel down and I feel damn awesome after that.
Oh yes I think someone is so funny. HAHA it's so hilarious when you're ignoring a person and then secretly go ask about her. And let her find out somemore. HAHA but at least someone cares.
20100114
♥ A summary.
I don't understand how come some people can just disappoint you repeatedly? Like when you decided to trust him/her again and again and again for the umpteenth time, and he/she still made your heart sink. And it has been years but a leopard never changes its spots right. ARGH. Okay blame the stupid person for willingly being used too though.
Job training today was alright. Was a lot more comfortable with the group already yay :D Did lots of math questions. After that, I took a long bus ride on 67 back to NJC! You know my heart was beating rather fast at Hwachong stop. I really miss this place! And seeing my most awesome juniors! They were so welcoming and stuff and made me feel like a superstar luh. Seriously! Everyone crowded around me after warmup haha. Oh yes special thanks to An for personally making vietnamese spring rolls for me. I will eat it up soon. (:
Going K with Shuyi Lilin Peisi tomorrow. YAY :D Looking forward to it. At the same time, I got to go get some working clothes already. I really love working clothes, haha but not that formal kind of wear luh.
I wanted to post a cool lyrics here but I've no time for it now. Tomorrow. Bye! :D
20100113
♥ ):
Today started off well. I was on my way to get a new phone and Mummy and I went to Swensen's for lunch since there was 1 for 1 offer. And we wanted to eat icecream but was too full and stuff blah blah blah.
When my turn came, I asked the guy if they have Sony Ericsson T707. (Yes it's Yihfang's and Charmaine's phone) and the guy told me no. So of course I've prepared backups luh. So I asked for LG new chocolate you know the slider one. I was mesmerized by its pretty pink and white combination when I was walking around and viewing the phones. I was all happy and stuff and until I went home I realised smth.
You know, I really really love LG Lollipop phone right?! And I've been waiting for its arrival since like June and there are news that it's finally coming out end of this month! A 7-months long wait okay. But I gave up waiting because I've been told that LG phones aren't that good. And because I've no choice since SE T707 was out of stock, I had to get the LG chocolate phone right. It's only when I reach home then I realise WTH, chocolate or lollipop, they're both LG and I should have just waited for Lollipop. ):
Lissya said Lollipop might not be out since there were news released long ago saying it will be out in the last quarter of 2009 and its almost two weeks past 2010 and there are still no signs of it coming out. But I went to M1 website and saw the upcoming models and LG lollipop is inside ):
www.m1shop.com.sg/Redirect?nextpage=upcomingModels.jsp&n=UpcomingModels OMG ultra upset right now. Can someone nice who wants LG new chocolate not get the phone but instead get LG lollipop and exchange with me please? ): I will top up the difference in balance! Another way is to plead with my sister to get LG lollipop when her contract ends (but it's also September luh) and I will do whatever thing for her luh.
I thought of so many ways in the past hour. Like trading in my brand new LG chocolate (it's only 2hours old at this point of time) and getting LG lollipop at retail price. But then it's so stupid luh it's like I'm wasting a lot of money. Thinking about it from another angle, LG lollipop would be rather expensive even with contract (yes I've to pay for my phone and bills) so I'll probably be unable to afford it in the near future. And Chocolate might be better than Lollipop blahblah. I really must be not in the right mind eh. I really hate slider phones why did I get Chocolate? ))):
The only thing I can do now is to learn to love chocolate. I shall say 100times of I love you to chocolate each day. )))))))))))))):
20100112
♥ To the bottom.
Job training is tiring! Ohmy and to think this is not the real work yet. Okay though I kind of do look forward to the real work next week, because not only does it mean money! It also means that I'll be less bored and yes more fun. I think the kids will be cute, will they? Please let them be cute kids and not kids who open their mouth and talk philosophical things to me.
Today was the second job training session. Getting to know a new group of people isn't easy, but I'm trying hard luh. You know, socialising skills have deproved greatly. I've said that I'm no longer a socialiser and I don't know why people do not believe me. Anyway, I think after the awkward phase is over (which takes maybe a few days of seeing each other), it will be fine! I cannot stand not opening my mouth too. Anyway, awesome friends are what makes work fun right. So, I should know more awesome friends. :D
Anyway, I was really fuming today as I was telling some people. Fuming not really because someone irritated me but rather I was so disappointed. And this kind of disappointment just overwhelmed me and my heart really sank to the bottom of the sea. I was supposed to be back in school to surprise the juniors. But because training was pushed back once to 5pm and another time to 530pm and I heard that they are ending dance at 630, I couldn't get there in time! You know I was so upset because I was looking forward to it and then POOF! I was really so disappointed I almost started tearing while walking towards Tampines MRT station.
I still cannot quite believe it that I've a job now after a long time of job-hunting and yes, as I've said, I'll only start believing when I really started work next week. The environment there is rather nice though.
Oh yes, Spins plus a lot of other people, said that I'm picky. Lissya said I was fickle-minded (or did I realise it myself?) because I'm still undecided on which phone to get. SML called me troublesome for whatever reasons he has. (which does not make sense to a large extent.) Ohman I've to get rid of all these bad qualities this year!
20100110
♥ Teaching the kids.
Why are my friends all teaching? HAHA. Had an awesome time with Huiwei Saniah Gwen and Lissya on friday night. Such a pity Joycelyn had OT and Hazi isn't free. ): Anyway, Huiwei is a primary school teacher and she teaches PE, Music, Social Studies, Health Education, Art& Craft haha. Gwen is starting her lessons tmr in NJ :D Teaching LA and Biology. Lissya is starting her teaching internship at whatever secondary school. Sorry but I seriously cannot remember the name.
To Mr Lim Hongjie, happy working haha! Stop slacking so much.
To Miss Koh Huiwei, have fun with the kids at PE! :D Stop making them play ' Pass the parcel' which is not PE at all.
To Miss Lissya binte Suwandi, Miss Hwarng Gwen, Miss Chua Jiayi Brena, Miss Wong Elin, Miss Kwok Jasmine good luck for the first day of work and all the anxiety you will face! :P
I want meetups and shoppings. HAHA
I kind of stop watching 'We got married' after the separation of Hwangbo and Hyunjoong. Not that I particularly like them but I followed them from the start yeah. It's quite sad that 8 months just reduced to nothing once the show ends. If I ever become an artiste and I am ever approached to shoot this kind of show, I won't. I'm sure I will devote real feelings into it and never be able to pull back myself after the show ends. Might watch Alex and Shinae though if I get bored. Saniah is suggesting that I watch 'You're beautiful' haha sounds interesting. I might watch it someday (:
Okay that's about it. Not much updates.
Oh yeah though I realised my face got rounder, I realised my eyebags are slowly disappearing because I have been sleeping so much. Haha is that a good thing or not?
20100107
♥ The real one.
Haven't been doing much. Bumming around at home and stuff yeah. Went out a few times, lagged at home sometimes. I'm totally bored. My mum thinks that I've been cursed or something and she is thinking of bringing me to the temple to pray so that I can get a job. Quite cute of her but she cannot find the time to bring me out. So I don't know when I can get a job too.
I still owe people lots of meetups I know and a good thing is that Mummy actually allows me to use my Eagles Award 200bucks! Yay so I am 200bucks richer now haha can go for meetups already even before I get a job and pay :D Also, I've to start shopping for CNY clothes or something because my sister is working and there's only some days which she has a full off-day.
And sorry for the lack of updates because recently, both my brother's laptop and my desktop are spoilt. For the desktop, sometimes it switches off itself, sometimes it cannot even on >< Sometimes it will be fine luh. So yeah, sorry for the lack of updates. Besides that, I am usually rather actively updating right.
Anyway, hair is growing :DDDDDDDDDD Not that I measure it but I look at it everyday so I'm sure it has grown! Yay grow hair grow then I can do my curls. Heard Miss Ting curled her hair haha! I will go back to see my dancers and her hair :P And An made vietnamese spring rolls for me awesome haha! Of course I will go back to eat it.
Sister told me she lost 4kg zzz. She's working in the F&B industry (food&beverages which meant those restaurants waitress luh I'm surprised so many people don't know what does F&B means) hence you know night shift till 11pm she sleeps past midnight wakes up at 10plus. So she normally just had brunch and then dinner at 4plus 5. Two meals a day is a good way to lose weight seriously. I lost 4kg last time too through 2meals a day. But of course not advocating eating that unhealthily. Heh but if I can lose weight, maybe I should.
Mummy has been cooking a lot and feeding me like I'm a pig >< Ah and staying at home and too lazy to exercise and stuff sees my weight staying constant at **kg. Irritating! Maybe I should be contented that I'm not adding weight. Yesterday I was staring into the mirror and had a sudden realisation that my face has gotten rounder. ):
Joshua Ang finally appeared on 'Your hands in mine' yesterday. HAHA COOL APPEARANCE :D Though I cannot help but agree that he seemed kind of overly high during the performance itself. Not necessarily a bad thing just that I'm not used to such an image.
I'M BORED. WHERE ARE ALL THE UNEMPLOYED PEOPLE?!
20100106
♥ Update!
Haha copying Gwen...
This update is to let you know that I'll update soon!
Have been too lazy to type long posts recently. Watching 'We got married'. Watch it if you're bored! It's hilarious and sweet and stuff. It has been my friend since I've been unemployed for a month HAHA. I really hate unemployment! =X
Meanwhile, thanks to all those who recommended me jobs eg. Masu, Zhengpin, Jingmin, Junjie, Baojun, Hazi, Aqilah, Kiat. Who else I hope I don't miss them out =X And continue recommending me jobs! Somehow, my luck has been pretty bad ):
