20100331
♥ (:
Just in case you are wondering, I am working as a marketing assistant right now. Title sounds fantastic, and yes I do have my own room, my own laptop, my own telephone, my own email in the company, my own a lot of things luh. But the pay is just average haha.
Anyway, the purpose of today's post is to congratulate the following few people: Jingmin dear, Huiwei and Szekiat on getting the Nanyang Scholarship, College Scholarship and DSTA Scholarship respectively! :D Yay so happy for them haha.
I'm going to make dear give me a treat! Be prepared dear :D
I promise I will try to put work over FB lol. I will finish all work needed before surfing the Net for random stuff. My bosses have been too nice to me. Telling me to go home early on Monday because it's the first day of work and they don't want me to be too stressed out and early today because I have nothing to do alr. I promise I will try to learn the most out of this and enjoy work. Heh now some days, I might have a lunch partner already! :P EH STILL LOOKING FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE WORKING AROUND ORCHARD TO LUNCH WITH!
Btw I realised that to work in my workplace area, you cannot be afraid of dogs. I need to walk past at least 5 dogs a day those huge gigantic ones. It does help a little in conquering my fear for dogs.
Yay Friday is Good Friday. Loves public holidays : D especially when I'm not paid hourly, I'm paid monthly. Now more PHs will be good : D
20100329
♥
I got this from Saniah's blog when I was bored. Maybe someone nice can help me kill time haha, indirectly.
http://www.formspring.me/nglizhu
Oh I've to mention that I dreamt of A that day! It was a lovely dream haha, I missed A & others a lot eh! The dream ended off really well HAHAHA, I vaguely remembered that A was trying to tell me something but I woke up already.
NTU and NUS apps and scholarship apps finally settled! :DD Eh SMU one argh! Why are all these so troublesome.
Updates are frequent enough right. New job is rather good. I have a room to myself, my own laptop, and my own telephone. What else? My own email in the company. I can wear casual (but not shorts luh) there, I can and in fact should walk around barefooted yay! Hah and the colleagues are nice, the job scope sounds challenging but interesting. Only bad thing: why do I have to lunch alone? Anyone working in Orchard area please contact me to lunch together!
20100328
♥ Put a smile on my face.
:D
Mood continues to be good this week!
Relief teaching is a little boring, but the students have been cooperative so it's still bearable. I ended it already and I hope if I ever do get anymore relief teaching jobs, I get to do real teaching. I feel so useless sitting there and supervising the students when obviously they are not even doing the work I asked them to do.
To WKB, I thought you stopped reading blogs already haha. And my blog is frequently updated okay, just not that updated as Lissya's.
Anyway, dance has been fun this week! : D No aches, probably that's why haha. I thought the dance looked hard, but it's actually quite fun when we danced it. And I love dancing to music! (: Surprisingly, our steps were quite uniform eh haha despite it only being the first session. Zairin has started choreographing so yay, there will be formations soon! :D ARISTAL ARISTAL ARISTAL! Haha I love it, especially when Aristal '08 has been such an awesome experience. Aristal'08 and SYF'09 have been exceptionally significant to me and these are once-in-a-lifetime experiences and I really am pleased to be part of it. So, having this chance to dance for Aristal'10 and to be part of this lovely awesome group again, I'm honestly happy! (((((((((((((:
I'm starting work at a new workplace tmr! Kind of nervous, but excited. Hope everything goes well! :D Yeah I'm sorry if I kept on giving ideas on meetups but have not been following up on it! I will do so the next time round okay! Yeah yeah, K session anyone? And there will be badminton match and lunch gathering next next Sunday :D Yay, I love meetups! :D
P.S. Eh it gets kind of scary when everything is flowing so smoothly for me all of a sudden. And I totally envy Lissya who is slacking at home everyday.
There are one thousand reasons to smile, today I found another reason to do so. (:
20100325
♥ Relativity.
Working life is not easy, I think everyone who's currently working now knows it right!
As I walk along the streets and see students in their uniforms, I get this strong intense feeling that I really want to put on my uniform and go to school again. Student life is relatively carefree. Just make sure that your results are fine, and then enjoy your life in school. Learning is not boring, the boring part is showing people that you've learnt something, through tests and examinations.
Working is harder, not only do you get tired from work, you also get bored and all kinds of emotions. You have to learn to compromise, give in to people, ensure that you're not caught in the office politics and whatever not. Basically, what Ms Khoo said during MD camp is true. In school, in CCA, that's the best platform for you to learn how to interact with people. Because when you step out into society, no one cares if you're a fresh graduate or not, interaction wise, you're expected to be as professional and experienced as anyone else.
My past two jobs in my lives. Both are similar in the sense that I'm the youngest there and everyone treats me like a kid. No one has ever raised their voice at me no matter what mistake I've done, nor do they even give me a stare. Colleagues have been too nice, which makes me wonder, how do I learn like that?
Relief teaching for a week at CGS. Generally, I'm glad that I get classes that do listen to me and do their work even though I'm just a relief teacher. The students say 'Good morning' or at least bow to me when I see them along the corridors. The teachers smile at me despite not knowing who I am, how long I will be teaching there. CGS gives me this nice feeling because the people there are ever so nice. Today, I had this really cute class who sang praises of me but haha, I still make them do essays nonetheless. Today is my last day of relief teaching, although I don't do real teaching, I'm still glad for the experience I had there.
I've nothing else I want to write. Abrupt ending I know but bye. :D
20100322
♥ I love Lady Luck! :D
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I've having good time right now.
Well, job wise, it is good. I know I was job hunting previously, but then it was only a two weeks job hunting period so it was still fun. Plus, my mum wasn't pressurizing me to get a job so I was in fact really fine with enjoying my break. However, one bad point about being jobless is no pay! Anyway I've a few job offers and interviews so yeah.
Anyway, point is, I finally patched up with someone, after 3-4 long months. And we're going to prove to others that we can stop quarreling for once right? :D Well, these 3, 4 months have not been that terrible, but definitely not an easy time too. Awesome right!
And I'm trying to meet up with a lot of people! Please, can we find some time to meet? I was so busy with job hunting and uni apps and scholarship apps (not like I will get it but I can try right) for the past two weeks, but I'm going to be more free I think. Dance has started so basically almost my whole Saturday is gone cause dance is at such a weird time. Actually and I'm going to be working again but then, we can always find time right!
Okay dance restarting meant bad muscle aches. I've been aching so badly from Saturday till yesterday till today and I'm sure the aches will last a few more days. Then, it will be Saturday and there will be dance again and I will ache again. But it's only a few more weeks to Aristal and I'm sure all these aches are worthwhile because I'm doing something I really love! :D To dance, and to dance out my very best. The Zapin dance definitely does not look easy, and it scares me quite a bit that we're dancing that, but NJC MD can do it :D Oh yes I'm totally loving the exclusive seniors mickey tee! :D (Sorry Hazi we didn't get it for you cause we won't be seeing you, but we can go and get another one if you like :D )
I'm having interesting job prospects. Will talk more about it once they are confirmed haha :D Shucks I've to wake up at 6am, relief teaching is not easy! ):
20100319
♥ Contain that excitement! :D
Some things to update about. Let this be a short and sweet post. (:
Shopping with senior girls yesterday was great! :D 4/7, not too bad an attendance luh. I said it was real shopping and it really is real shopping! I think almost all of us exceeded our budget, maybe except me HAHA. Well, Lissya bought a tshirt, bag and a top. Huiwei bought two dresses (or was it one?), a shirt for her man and a tshirt. (Thank gawd we stopped her from buying the dogs bag) Gwen bought two dresses (her students got to see her in them!) and a t-shirt. I bought a blouse, a bag and a tshirt. Wondering why we all got a tshirt each? HAHA it is for an awesome reason of course.
Another thing to be excited about. I chanced upon this job opp at a wedding planning services. And some people should have known that it is my dream to be a wedding planner so I have already emailed the person-in-charge and I really really pray that I can get the job because I wanted so much to work in that industry. Although I've not even been contacted for an interview yet, I am still excited :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I've applied for NTU and NUS so far, and a scholarship. And will continue to apply for more scholarships and considering if I should apply for SMU. Oh yeah I am still jobless so still direct any job opportunities you know to me! I will be eternally grateful to you but thats it haha, maybe a treat if I'm in good mood. (: Oh yes I'm looking at giving private tuition too, so do recommend me some, or at least dump me some websites to go to.
Last but not least, I am going to my first dance practice after like 8 months. I hope I don't get aches tomorrow and I hope I can still remember my basic steps correctly. I hope that the senior dancers can dance more! instead of just floating by for 10seconds, but whatever the thing is, I AM EXCITED THAT I AM GOING TO BE ON THE STAGE FOR ARISTAL NIGHT REPRESENTING NJC MALAY DANCE ONCE AGAIN! (:
Sometimes, some passion never dies off, no matter how long. :D
20100316
♥ Awesome seniors :D
I love the senior dancers! :D
Awesome meetup today. It was really more of like a senior dancers meetup instead of like going to dance camp because half the time, we were sitting at one side and chit-chatting instead. Not that the juniors purposely ignored us, but they are busy training and anyway we've so much to catch up on ourselves! It was just awesome being cheapo together, getting so budget and laughing at Saniah's and Gwen's bladder size HAHA.
I got really bored towards the end of the camp. Not to the extent of falling asleep, but I was starting to yawn. Probably because you don't feel involved that's why you don't seem to able to share what's funny and stuff. The group is growing too fast for me to keep up with, things like offering sweets to the juniors, I can do it, but things like remembering their names, oh please do give me some time! They are ever-increasing somehow when I go back every other time, I see new faces, or was it that I didn't remember the faces? Haha whatever, I enjoy lagging behind and taking time to enjoy life.
Senior dancers there most likely will be a shopping trip at Fareast this coming Thursday, I will message everyone tomorrow! :DDDDDDDD YAY to both shopping and gathering and eating (:
Today my good mood was kind of spoilt because I was being nice and trying to initiate a conversation but someone does not seem to be appreciative and keeps on irriating me, not out of purpose but STILL. It takes a lot of effort to maintain this kind of friendship, one whereby two people are so different and always arguing, at least we used to put in that effort. But I'm not sure if I want to continue to, mindsets seem too far apart. What's funny to you is irritating to me. And the more I don't feel like contributing effort from my part because YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY NOT DOING ANYTHING.
P.S. Gwen Hwarng your theory is not correct. I'm just a little pissed off by this fellow.
20100311
♥ Everything under the sun.
Updating for the sake of keeping this blog alive.
Anyway, I am still a bit unsure of what I want to study, any opinions? zzz sometimes, I really cannot stand myself because I am so indecisive and whatever not. Recently, I have this burning desire to be a teacher. Probably it's because a lot of people around me are teaching, a certain degree of influence luh. I was thinking of taking up a degree in teaching but the thing is, I am not sure if this random passion will able to last me for the next 10 years or so. I need to find some teachers to ask them for some opinions.
Linking to the paragraph above, you should sort of have guessed it that I've been ringing up a lot of schools to ask if they have vacancies for relief teaching but because it's already one term past 2010, most schools do not have vacancies. I think I rang up 20plus close to 3o schools already. Maybe it's the attractive pay that's super appealing, whatever it is, I don't know what made me so serious and quietly sit down to check each school's number and phone them.
If I want a fun job, it has to be retail/F&B which is long working hours plus . If I want office hours, it has to be adminstrative work which is boring. And I think my mum has been right about one thing - that I'm still super picky. But what made me so irritated was that she has been nagging at me for a few days but I've only ended my previous work for only a week. And seriously, I can't sit still at home with nothing to do too so I just hope I get a job soon which means no nagging and less staring into space I guess.
I realised that I've lost my social life once again. Although I'm jobless (which means no pay and stuff), please do continue to date me out because I am rotting at home. I don't want to turn fat. Oh yes I am once again on a diet plus on an exercise regime. People kept on asking me why my diets are never-ending. Reason: Because my diets never work so I've to keep on implementing it until it works. (:
20100306
♥
Alevels results were out yesterday. Despite my previous blog post, I was unable to really calm myself down yesterday before receiving the results.
I am not those who cries over results, nor those who screams aloud when I'm excited. But that doesn't mean I'm totally calm. It was over until I was on the bus then I start to feel nervous and I was humming along with some songs to make me feel better. Did help a little I guess.
Reaching school and stuff was still alright. Cause the weather was bloody hot and all I could think of was to get a drink. And all was fine until Mr Menon came around and told us using his loudspeaker, to go up to the hall. That was still fine. Until Gwen Hwarng was announced as the top 10 who got 8 distinctions. *FAINTS* That was still fine until the row of people in front of me started getting 3As. I was really scared by then. And the moment I received my result slip, I didn't see it. I walked to one side and stood with Steph both of us didn't dare to see it. You know, it may be just one slip of paper but it determines a lot.
And then people crowded around me to ask how I did and I kept saying 'Don't ask me I haven't seen it yet'. Until Ms Chua came over and looked at my slip and she told me that I should see it. My heart skipped a beat when I flipped the paper around. Thank gawd it was fine.
Getting A for GP was one of the best things that ever happened to me. From S for GP to 54, just one mark to C but yet a D for prelims and till now. GP hasn't been my best subject and in fact, is the most worrying one for me this time round. I couldn't say I deserve it because despite working hard, I never thought that I was ever A standard for GP. Nevertheless, it was a moment of excitement.
Getting A for Physics was another exhilarating thing. Because I've never gotten past E for Physics in my 2 years of JC education. Because I was ranked 12th percentile in Prelims and got a E and the E was because the teachers were lenient and gave me one more mark if not I would have gotten S. And the E was when hundreds of people got B cause the prelims paper was considered easy. I've put in the most effort for Physics, revising through the subject right from the start, getting my foundation right, meeting up with Mr Lim for once/twice in a week. Finished up all the questions I can find in TYS or worksheets. It was a lot of effort put in and I'm glad for the reward given.
AAAAB was a decent enough grade. I wouldn't say I'm not satisfied, although it's a little disappointing because I was that close to straight As, still I'm contented already. B for econs was a little disappointing though I've expected it but I really hoped that I was at the upper half of the bell curve, sadly nope, at least not in the school.
To all my friends who've done well, congratulations! Whereas to all others who hasnt, it may be a big thing but its not the end of the world. The biggest mistake in life is not those who tried but failed, but those who failed to try. I hate to see tears, so people, do cheer up! (: You know, I hate the part about receiving results, partly because of my own disappointment but mostly because I hate to see my friends getting upset.
And for those seniors and juniors and friends from everyone who wished me good luck and were concerned with my grades, thanks a million! (: It did feel better with a lot of you believing that I will do well and when I did do well, you guys were even more excited than I am. That's the most important and happiest thing about this.
20100304
♥ Mixed feelings.
Results will be out tomorrow. In about 26hours' time, I will know it.
I know everyone's blog is about results now. It's like everyone's nightmare. Was it that bad when we received the O's? At least not for me. The day I got back O's results, I was terribly upset, because A01 has to split up soon. This time round, I'm really scared, because I've been having multiple nightmares (is it considered a nightmare) about getting back grades like AADDD and BBCDD or something along that line.
We aim high so that if we happen to fall, we aren't that low. I aimed for AAAA for the main four H2 and B for GP. Because I know A for GP is totally not realistic for me. Judging by by prelims results, and my previous results, A for physics is actually unrealistic too because I've never scored past a E for physics in my two years of JC education. But I really mugged like crap for physics this time round.
Sharon told me the other time, the only certainty amidst all these uncertainties is the effort you put into everything. I did my best but is my best enough. Nevertheless, results have been confirmed days and weeks and months ago, the only thing I can do now is to believe in myself. No more regrets because I've done all I could, but it gets a little saddening if I happen to not do well.
I want to bring glory to Malay Dance, to be one of the straight As scorers Mrs Tan can claim proudly to be her malay dancers. I want to get into a course I really love. I want to make my parents proud. I want to prove to myself that a lot of things are possible, if you're willing to put in effort to make it possible. I want to let the teachers know that their efforts have not come to waste. There are so many people I don't want to disappoint.
How things go, I cannot determine. But I can determine how I behave after that. If I were to go party everyday from being too happy after that, I think no one would stop me. But if I were to sit there and cry, I think I will look down on myself too. All in all, I believe in myself, tomorrow will be a good day (:
So, be positive everyone! I know we cannot help but to get worried, but if that's our best (which I'm sure it is) then just smile tomorrow. I don't wish to see any tears tomorrow, definitely not from myself nor from my friends.
