20110327
♥ The one last time.
My exact sentiments. Why can't people differentiate between true concern and mere kaypoh? Either case, you would just assume what you are assuming.
A particular incident upsetted me today. It made me doubt myself, whether it was me who was portraying the wrong image all along. And I think the fact that such a similar incident happened again means that I really do have to reflect on myself.
And for the second time I'm telling someone straight, so I might as well make this known to all my friends who are reading this. If you think I would be the one who would spread whatever you tell me and that I was not trustworthy, please tell me STRAIGHT IN MY FACE. I absolutely dislike it if I get lied to. I think it would hurt a thousand times less if I was told straight in the face that I suck in keeping secrets etc than to be lied to. Because you show me that not only can I not be trusted, I also don't even deserve you being truthful to me.
The rule of the thumb is:
1) Either you tell me the truth.
2) You tell me that this is none of my business, you don't want to let me know anything and that I should reflect on how trustworthy I am.
I think I need some emotions management course. I am always so affected like I exaggerated evcerything. But if the basis of any form of relationship isn't trust, then what's left?
"Do not doubt. Give the benefit of the doubt". I did, and I honestly believed what you told me, for the whole one week, maybe it would have been nice if you could reciprocate it?
♥ 爱就对了
Sunday sunday sunday! And there's DrumZout BBQ later gosh gosh gosh. Yes you guessed it, I haven't studied for Acc midterms.
And have I ever talked about my disgustingly horrible FM quiz. It was so freaking harddd. ): There goes my 15% arghhhh. Can only pull it up next time!
Just wanted to share that I suddenly realised this thing in university. When I was in ssch and JC, I don't understand why people used the word 'classmate' because I used 'classmates' and 'friends' interchangeably. Now I know why. In university, your tutorial mates are your tutorial mates. Your friends are your friends. It would be good if your friends can become your tutorial mates, but it's so unlikely that your tutorial mates will become your friend. At least not for a floater. And I believe I said it before, but I still think that it's so not meaningful that everyone come together for a class, laugh together when the teacher tried to make some jokes, leave the class, and never bother about each other once that semester ends. And there is such a clear distinction between tutorial mates and friends. Tutorial mates discuss about projects/work/assignment but friends talk about anything under the sun. Plus, I rarely have time to interact with my tutorial mates outside of class. It's only project meeting and project meeting. It feels so pathetic somehow.
But nonetheless, I'm glad for the tutorial mates/friends I've had this semester. Really nice and funny people. My accounting/bizlaw mates, IT mates, comm funds mates and FM mates. :DD
爱是对的，错的是我们还没学会爱就急着爱人，而爱错人。
20110324
♥ My non-existant holidays.
My recess week just flew past like that?! ): Ahhhh shucks, and the week after that which is this week luh, is nothing much better zzz.
Half my recess week was dedicated to DrumZout. Finally, the auditions are over. Quite a few issues cropped up but luckily everything went on fine. And for garang guni too. Was initially so so irritated/stressed that our manpower was so so so limited but we were really lucky enough to have sort of reached our target. :DD
And so that began my crazy week since I couldn't get much stuff done by the end of recess week. I had an official extension of recess week by skipping Monday's lectures opps :P Well for the sake of my 20% of the business law assignment, I have to. And I didn't have time to do this week's tutorial freak freak freak. How to catch up?! ):
And not to say that the FM quiz which I studied a few hours for 3 days was damn freaking hard! ): And what's with the -1 mark for wrong answer, damn, I hope I don't end up with a single digit. Well but 10/60 is damn terrible too. Can I at least pass the quiz? It's freaking 15% ): ): ):
Ahhhh this ought to teach me a lesson. No more falling asleep during FM classes and only studying a few days before the quiz. Shucks but 15% is too serious leh ): Upset upset upset.
Anyways, there's accounting midterms coming up next week. Do not repeat your mistake Lizhu! D: D: Ahhh sounds like a lot of things to do, with FM presentation next week too, and accounting project due soon. Not to mention I haven't done anything for my IT project and yes I'm neglecting biz mag stuff at DrumZout side too. ): Well at least the subcomm BBQ this sunday allows me to relax a bit!
And there's an upcoming night cycling :P But I honestly don't think I can go goshhhh it's crazy luhhh! See the amount of stuff I've to do. ):
There's quite a few 21st bday parties coming up :DDD Heh I like!
I feel like watching Korean dramas gosh.
And I feel fat. I need to exercise goshhhhhhhhhhhhh.
20110318
♥
I want to start doing my bizlaw assignment. I don't know how to get started zzz. This biz law assignment is seriously destroying all the interest I've developed for biz law this semester. Worse still, I DON'T HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THIS WORLD. ):
Okay, I should stop wishing for my A+ and start doing something about it instead, even though I'm sure I can no longer get my A+ for this assignment. Rahhhhh so irritated. Frustration is making me frustrated.
20110316
♥ Do you have time for me?
I always thought that there is no such thing as no time, because if you want to spend time with someone, you would find time. And the above is so true. And now I feel really mean for not meeting up with my friends. And I really want to meet them. ):
Extracted from previous blogposts + some changes:
Some things to look forward to:
1) Recess week.
2) Movie with Lissya!!!!! :D
3) Meetup with Shiqi!!!
4) Shopping with Sister.
Some things I'm dreading:
1) Acc midterms (20% gosh)
2) Acc proj (15% gosh)
3) IT digital world proj (15% gosh)
4) Comm funds lessons. (Now I understand why last sem, everyone said comm funds is crap.)
5) FM quiz (15% gosh)
6) Biz law asg (20% gosh)
What the hell right, no more recess week zzz, no more movie with Lissya or meetup with Shiqi, but more stuff to do. That's excluding DrumZout events this weekend 'cause it's a love-hate relationship with it. Love it because it means spending more time with DZ peeps, but hate it because I'm too busy for it. Therefore, it cancels out and is not present in this unbalanced equation whereby things I'm dreading > things I'm looking forward to.
Complaints and rantings will continue until I start finishing up these assignments/revisions or when recess week is over, whichever comes first.
20110315
♥ 爱笑的眼睛
Have been really busy with a lot of things nowadays. Lots of assignments and projects and quizzes with each being at least 15% of my final grades, as well DrumZout stuff, auditions, canvassing, open house, meeting up with sponsors etc. There goes all my time seriously.
I was initially planning meetups with Shiqi, Lissya, Peng and shopping with Sister etc but I've too many things to do, too little time, plus being too slack, time is actually really tight for me now! Oh yeah and I have the time to continue blogging. :/ Grrrr, see why I'm so irritated with myself everyday? I have so many things to be done, and I aim to finish them by when and when, and it's never done. Social networks are such a disaster sheez.
Anyway, just something I've realised last week. It's all about doing what makes you happy. I really hate how sometimes, we have to force ourselves to mix with people we do not enjoy being around with. I mean, it's not easy. Definitely good if we can be in the company of those we love. But somehow, we can't always have the best of both worlds. And I told myself, as if my physical presence makes a difference if I do not truly want to be there. I think that life is already as hard as it is, so why make things worse when you could possibly avoid it?
That sounds kinda negative. Alright positive stuff. Have been spending my past weekends with DrumZout. In fact, I saw them on Thursday for meeting, Saturday for NTU Open House and Sunday for our auditions briefing + distributing flyers. And although I complain about all the work to do for DrumZout stuff which mainly includes sponsorships, I really love this group of people. Actually, CAC people in general, really love how everyone is one big family.
NTU Open House on Saturday! Reached school at 8am, met with Jianb first for the long and draggy journey to school, like first time ever since Jianb moved house. And then that begins my long day in NTU. Stood for almost the whole day with lunchtime as the exception! Legs were aching like mad. But I saw Wenyi!! Excited max :D Plus I was supposed to see Charm! ): But was on the campus tours when she was around the area! I had a lot of people enquiring about NBS (and I hope I gave the right info) and whether double degree is hectic etc, a mum even asked for my number in case she wants to know more. To sum up, it was a crazily shagged day.
Sunday with DZ! Auditions briefing was over before I know it and we were camwhoring and taking jumpshots after that. CSN made us jump 127873214676185 times and I think in the end, we still didn't manage to take a proper one tsktsk! Long car ride to Hougang which made quite a few of us felt really giddy and uncomfortable. And to think that was not enough, the flats were quite cui plus one flat was even demolished already! Seriously, I need a more updated map of Singapore zzz. Finally settled on a few flats after eons and wrapped up the whole flyer distribution thingy by 7plus. Ahhh gosh I hate the lifts there btw, don't like lifts with no windows. Claustrophobic, is that the right word?
Highlight of the day was dinner at Chomp Chomp. And a bit of HTHT along the way to Chomp Chomp + when we were trying to find a parking lot. Oh and when Eugene sent some of us home. I like how easy it is to be able to talk with DZ people, like it's one big family, which was a kind of feeling that was made even stronger after our DrumZout camp in my opinion. And I still get some random comments every now and then about me eyecandying ZY but I'm glad it has come to a stage whereby we can just laugh it off, or at least I do. Actually, ex-eyecandy, because as the friendship deepens, it feels weirder and weirder to be eyecandying your friend. Back to the main point, yeah I think it's not easy to feel so at ease talking to people, and giving really truthful honest opinions/advice and therefore, I really treasure their company. Love what you're doing, do what you love. (:
P.S.: But this time it's different, I'm not missing you. Certain things will remain, but I'm throwing them to the back of my mind, in fact, never to be reminisced again.
20110306
♥ 回到过去
Blogging has become a weekly update. I really do want to do it more frequently but 1) I've nothing much to talk about. 2) I'm really pretty busy.
I really kind of miss my carefree days as a kid, as a primary school kid, or actually even sec sch kid or JC kid wasn't THAT bad. Whoever said university is a breeze is so so wrong! Whoever said you come to university to network and expand your social circle is so so crap! I don't know how this whole system works, but as far as I know, I'm still having difficulty trying to find a way out of the huge stack of tutorials/projects/presentations.
Tuesday was my free day and I came to school just for Open House briefing at 6pm. Fine fine, thing is, it started shortly after 630pm and ended slightly before 7pm. Gosh you know how irritated I was?! Travelling time to and fro was 2hours just for smth like less than half an hour of stuff, plus it wasn't even considered a briefing/training. Headed out to JP for Ji De Chi and then to the pasar malam there and to the park opposite for HTHT! Really nostalgic night, which further shows the age gap between Shan + me and Pak + Alex + Max. HAHAH nevertheless, it was fun talking about the past, and how carefree we all were. (:
Tuesday and Wednesday were spent slacking like crazy. Good job Lizhu, and did you just mention that you were really pretty busy. Oh yeah I was indeed pretty busy surfing the net. I think I really need someone to change my password and lock up my laptop (literally is fine too) zzz I think I spend 1/3 of my life on Facebook and the problem is : there is pretty much no updates and I don't know how I can spend so much time on it!!
Some things to look forward to:
1) Recess week.
2) Movie with Lissya!!!! :D
Some things I'm dreading:
1) Acc midterms (20% gosh)
2) Acc proj (15% gosh)
3) IT digital world proj (15% gosh)
4) Comm funds lessons. (Now I understand why last sem, everyone said comm funds is crap.)
Refer to things I'm dreading point 1 and 2, and you can see that I'm pretty much dead for AA101 already, plus plus I haven't been participating in class. Another 10% thrown into the drain gosh.
Pimple outbreak! Plus I am running low on cash. Pretty good that Sis is having her holidays now so she's gonna earn money yay for more clothes! I really need more clothes zzz.
Who wants to set up a blogshop together with me?! (I'm dead serious btw, just that I am still hesitating alot.) I envy Joyce (owner of The Tinsel Rack (
www.thetinselrack.livejournal.com)) a lot! She always got the awesome clothes goshhhhhh. I love reading her blog too!
www.joy-aholic.livejournal.com. Nah, for those who are bored because I don't update as often. (: Oh yes drifting off the point, Sis gonna treat me to buffet if she gets her pay soon and Mummy too! :D And Sis gonna give me discount on clothes she buys :D Instead of half the price, I only need to pay 20% woots :D
