I've complained about results. I've complained about studies. I've complained about school. But if you know me, I'm pretty much a good student. And I've pretty much enjoyed learning, all the way till JC.

Since when was it that studying became a chore, and studying became centered around GPA, and studying became a competition to see who ultimately wins. Since when was it that friends who fought along with you one day can turn into strangers who refused you notes the next day? (Not me, but speaking from some of my friend's experience)

I've never really hated studying. But I've never been so indifferent about it before too. I'm so so sick of studying now, I wouldn't say hate, but I just procrastinate and try my best to avoid it as much as possible. I rarely get modules that I'm interested in, maybe because I chose the wrong course from the start, maybe because I didn't even bother putting in the effort to try to like the modules. But when I do get some (like Risk Insurance last semester), I really do go all out, read the thick text which suddenly seemed so lovely. And that should be the joy of learning.

There are many things that I really wanna do right now, but sadly, studying is not one of it. Maybe it's a phase, maybe it will pass, maybe a year or even a month after working, I will miss studying like mad. But currently, I really want to travel. I want to meet people without having to talk about school and how projects are taking up all my time. But because I'm a student, I can't do all these. I don't have the luxury of time. I don't have the income either, in fact I have a mountain of debt to clear.

Once I start working, I can go get a new hair change whenever I want without thinking of how it's gonna burn a huge hole in my pocket (which probably will never mend if I'm a student with no income). It's irritating  to wait to save up for it, and by the time you do, the initial hype dies off.

But I'm glad. In a month more, I'll be preparing for the arrival of my exams. In 1.5 months more, I will be done with school. I would be screaming 'GRADUATIONNNNNNNNNNNN' all over the place. 

Best of all, I will be back in Seoul, Korea.

C.A.N.T.  W.A.I.T.

Hair makes a lot of difference. A good haircut can ensure you confidence for a long time to come. I'm saying this because I experienced all sorts of good and bad haircuts along the way.

I've had my good hair before - way back in the early primary school days. Where my hair was black and straight and oh-so-healthy, where every other girl was seen spotting a "mushroom head" hair. To have my hair in this state now today, I highly attribute it to swimming and how I didn't learn to protect my hair in the past while swimming.

For most parts of my memory, I never remembered having good hair. Until I found this miracle thing called rebonding, which saved my hair since 2008. Rebonding was also the reason why I could have back short hair without them twisting and turning all around the place. It is a disaster if you have short hair and short hair that are not manageable.

Two years ago, I was mad about short hair. I would keep cutting my hair shorter, and shorter, and shorter. Until I reached this point so short, I almost wanted to go for a pixie cut next. Luckily I stopped myself in time. So this was the shortest I had ever gone.

I have since gone past that stage and have went back to keeping long hair now. It is so much harder to maintain and I'm experiencing so much more hair fall than before. There are so many pros and cons of working but for one, I definitely am looking forward to having income so that I can have my nice hair anytime.

As usual, after being influenced by the Korean waves, these are two looks that I'm trying to achieve right now. Long hair allows me to be more versatile with my hairstyles and so far, it's the way I want to keep my hair to be right now. So for friends who have always objected to my short hair, congratulations!

P.S.: That's not to say that I don't love my short hair. I still do, I just thought I needed a change in style (again)