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But currently, career decisions. 

What you like to do V.S. What you should do V.S. What you can do.

It's a mixture of passion, working hours, work-life balance, practicality, job prospects and money. We are starting to get realistic, and then entering the real world. But first, all these issues only come with job offers. Which currently I have only one. So there's nothing to think about too.

Secondly, I've finally broken free from some kind of internal struggle. Which lasted for the past 6 years. It's hard to admit this, but I've wasted 6 years of my life on this guy. Initially, I couldn't get over him. Subsequently, I couldn't get over it. And finally, I couldn't get past the barrier I've placed myself. And the worst thing of all was, it was a one-sided thing on my part. I didn't like to mention it previously, and I still wouldn't like to mention about it now too. (As noticed from how briefly I tried to bring it across) 

But okay that aside, my mum has been urging me to find a boyfriend recently. Tell me, why are parents so contradicting? Used to forbid you from all these things, and now rushing you to find a boyfriend?! You think boyfriends drop from the sky is it?

One last thing, I'm getting really tired. Can I just ask for more peace? No sarcasm, no finger-pointing, no badmouthing. It's something I hate to mention, and even in this space, I don't want too much information to be divulged.

Tonight is a night of confessions. Of being too mentally and emotionally strong. Of saying that I need a break someday. And because I can't take off this mask unless alone (which I seldom am), all these can only appear here.

Everyone faces times like this. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. I will be back.