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♥ A night full of thoughts.
When it is all quiet at night, you tend to think a lot. And let your mind drift and wander around.
And then, it goes back to that little portion that you have hidden well in your heart and locked it away and hoped no one ever touches it. But facts don't change, and memories don't fade (that fast), so you are bound to think of it once in a while.
And whenever I think of these, I realise, that there are some people, who will stay in your heart no matter what. They may not have stayed in your lives, but they tend to and love to pop up once in a while, in your mind, to prove that they still exist.
I get that sort of feeling everytime I see certain people. It's a kind of feeling I want to forget and kick away, but it hasn't proved to be very effective after all these years. And somehow, we just get pulled together by some unknown forces. It sucks to have too much mutual friends in this case. Anyone and everyone can remind me of you.
And if you (one of the certain people) ever see this (which I believe you never will), that kind of guilt and mistrust, and that pair of eyes telling me that everything is over, I cannot forget up till this date. When I think back, I thought, if I have done all that I could, then it's fine. But it suddenly dawned on me that, I haven't done anything, except verbal confirmation. But words are seldom truthful, and people do eat back on their words. Maybe that is why. But understanding this 5 years down the road, I don't think we can do anything anymore.
In life, we disappoint people. We are also disappointed by people. I am not too sure if it is karma at work, but to the one I disappointed, and the one who disappointed me, I believe you will still remain in my mind for the next few years, until time washes it all away.
