20120222
♥
Blogging in the wee hours now.
It's 1am. I am feeling sleepy. I just finished my work for the day.
Should I be happy or sad that today is a productive day? I did pretty a lot of revisions for my mid-terms. And settled quite some stuff. But if everyday was like this, it will be a total torture!
I realise university life has seen a change in me.
Even though I know a lot more people now, I don't know them well. In fact, I would say that my social circle has shrunk. Less time maintaining relationships, and not to say, no time creating relationships. How many times have I mentioned that I hate this hi-bye friends kind of thing? But how many times can I actually afford to have the time and energy to inject into these relationships?
If I didn't acknowledge you along the way, it's probably just my issue. I'm pretty much used to my own social circle already and I don't really want to step out of this comfort zone anymore. And actually I wonder... this isn't that bad afterall. Since I was kind of notorious for being overly friendly or overly socialising or something in the past.
20120216
♥
Half of February is already gone and I haven't had a single post.
February is a crazy month. With more devotion to school work, projects deadline, presentations and Valentine's Day. Much as academic stuff are crazily overwhelming, Valentine's Day is my ultimate horror of the month!
I guess with authority and position comes pressure. There are a lot of things I have to take note of, and every festive occasion like Vday and CNY translates into opportunities for $$$, which inevitably leads to some sort of pressure because of all these major canvassings.
Actually, I dislike Vday in NTU. There is just no mood/atmosphere?! I remember back in sec school and JC, Vday is a day full of love! You come into class with many chocolates and sweets on your table, and you go around distributing goodies to those who mattered to you. There are banners everywhere saying "Happy Valentine's Day!" and every other friend you bumped into in school, you greet each other with smiles and goodies. You hear song dedications every now and then. That's what I meant by atmosphere, not just booths everywhere where we earn each other's money and distributing balloons to random strangers whom you might never see again. No wonder they say university prepares you for workforce. Everything in university seems so... practical and real-world?!
Random thought: My face really grew rounder after all the snacking during CNY. Damn, I hate my round face in all the recent photos. ):
Anyway, I too, have been hooked to 步步惊心. At least there is something to look forward to after school everyday, not just tutorials and projects. But hmm, maybe I am spending too much time on TV too?
