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Today is a public holiday, but hardly any time for me to rest. A lot of major projects/presentations coming up. And all I know is that I can't afford to mess them up.

In the 2 plus more weeks coming up, I have:

1) Malay CA worth 35% (if I'm not wrong)

2) Management meeting worth 15%

3) AB214 presentation worth 20% (I think)

4) BF214 presentation worth 15%

5) AB214 post-test worth 15%

6) Malay Oral worth 15%

I think one single mistake is this is gonna pull my grades down by one grade. So... what to do but mug all day?

Something happier: My screen protector (diamond and mirror effect!) and pink casing has arrived. I heard from Spins that my home button stickers too! And one box of stuff (presumably my 3 other casings) and one more casing on its way hahah. Yayyyyy! :D

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Dreams tell a lot about what you feel. And dreams can mean a lot of things.

Today, I had a terrible dream. I woke up to realise that even though I have looked past everything when I'm awake, my subconscious mind seems to be still harping on it. Is this an indication that whatever has happened is still haunting me?

You know how sucky that feeling is when one day you wake up, and you realise all previous efforts have been in vain. I hate this kind of feeling.

Gonna throw myself into that pile of notes again.

Will blog about my new phone soon. When I am more free.

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I think that I'm being overly protected. Apparently, it seems like my height is not the only indication that I haven't grown up.

Ever since I started working after O Levels, and since then, all the holiday jobs I had, I was always the one whom everyone protected. I was never really punished nor reprimanded for whatever mistakes I made. Everyone tried to give in to me. (Oh yeah except that terrible work experience I've had.)

And even up till now. I still feel uneasy being someone else's GL because my GLs always take care of me (even though they always bully me too). And I still don't feel exactly comfortable being the VC when last time, I only took instructions from VC. I kind of still prepare being protected and taken care of, but I know I will never grow up like that.

Anyway, excited max! Gonna go change my phone this weekend! Byebye cui phone! :) Heh Samsung Galaxy S2 in white or black? Either ways, I've prepared to get dozens of casings and home button stickers and screen protectors and whatever not. It's been a long time since I have a damn chio phone! The switch from felt keyboard to touchscreen is not gonna be easy, especially with my plump fingers LOL.

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How do you define ideal?

You have this whole list of criteria for your ideal. You search high and low for your ideal. You get disappointed because no one seems to fit into this list of your ideal.

Until one day, you find someone who is so similar. So so similar. And then you start to know him a little better. But you soon realise that no, there are still areas that he is different. Then, you try to convince yourself to overlook these little nitty-gritty areas. Then, you realise actually these differences are so mild and insignificant and your ideal is still so ideal. And then, you think, maybe, maybe you do like him, that's why you can overlook everything.

But if you were to step back and think, do you really? Or because he is so close so close to your ideal, and you get confused with ideal and reality.

Actually, is ideal what we are looking for?

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I foresee even more intensive studying and stuff during the second half of the semester. Actually, not like I really did work hard in the first half. And no events I can think of, except Members' Night. Ohno, invite me to parties leh!