20110129
♥ The meaning of love.
A random chit chat with two of my friends triggered off much thoughts about love.
Interestingly, I talked to them separately and both of them told me this: "If you don't even plan to marry the person, why do you even bother to get into a relationship with him/her." and this sentence actually struck me quite deeply.
When I rebutted that marriage is at least about 7, 8 years down the road and a lot of things can happen within 7, 8 years, I was asked : "If you cannot even survive 7, 8 years with a person, how do you think you can survive the rest of your lifetime with him/her?".
Few years ago, I don't know how many people think this way. But now that my friends around me are meeting with many other problems in their love life, it seems to me that love is not as simple as it seem/sound.
I always felt that maybe we should just try to live life to the fullest now. If you know you truly like the other person, and you know you're happy being with him, shouldn't you give it a try even if the future may look bleak? But everyone around me seemed to think a lot deeper i.e. if they see no future they won't even commit.
I don't know, maybe my meaning of love is too simplified.
如果 我们现在还在一起会是怎样我们是不是还是深爱着对方
20110123
♥ 爱你在心口难开
DrumZout external publicity performance was too awesome! :D
To my malay dancers, so sorry I couldn't make it last minute! Really wanted to go back with Saiful to take a look at you guys/girls!! I MISS NJMD SO MUCH, and of course our awesome teachers too, Ms Khoo, Ms Ting and Ms Chen!! Those were the carefree days, seriously!!! (: Never fail to bring a smile onto my face everytime I look at Gwen Hwarng's albums of our random practice/performance videos/photos. :D
But, at the same time, I'm so glad to have found yet another awesome CCA over here in NTU. *DRUMZOUT LOVE* (Steals Shan's P&P&Proggies' love symbol)
Anyway, yesterday's external publicity was held at Orchard Road! :D Happening ehh. Reached at 240pm (opps 10minutes late but still relatively early) and sneaked to the flea to get rings LOL yays have bought 3/4 rings to date this holidays. :D
Moved on to my station, outside Ion Orchard/Wisma Atria. Secured our position (which was practically a smoking area, gosh the amount of 2nd hand smoke I breathed in for DrumZout yesterday) and self entertained till the first percussion group was here! Both groups helped to bring up the atmosphere of Orchard Road yesterday, damn upz! :DDDDDD Everyone was swaying and moving along with the beat, omgggg damn awesome seriously!!!! The rest of us helped to give our flyers to suitable crowd to ensure that they know about the upcoming DrumZout competition and hopefully, more people can join and show their talent! (:
The sweat and everything was worth it though. (: Hehh I love being around our DrumZout peeps. (: Words cannot substitute my love for DrumZout. :DDD Yeah 爱你在心口难开 hehh. Nothing much after that, dinner and then drinking at Home Club after that. As usual righttttt, what's new LOL?! (Refers to the drinking part.)
But anyway, one of the really sweet things I've heard yesterday. (:
P: "I've never been lucky in my life. The luckiest thing I've got is ... *points to her*." AWWWS~! (: This is a perfect example of 爱你在心口常开 LOL!
Alright, I was sick for the last week of holidays. Kind of wasted ahhh, but at least this DrumZout event made my last week of holidays happening enough. (:
P.S. : Sometimes, we've to face the fact that while good things never last, some don't even start.
20110121
♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROMARIO LIM ERN THIEN! : DDD
I don't think you will read this anyways LOL.
Despite your non-stop bullying, and your continuous teasings, you're still an awesome friend luh hahah. Stay happy! (:
Okay, random thought, I really want to go to Bangkok! ): Seeing how quite a few of my friends like Melissa, Priscilla, Yuewen, Jingmin, Zijia all went to Bangkok recently. I really really want to goooooooooooooooo. ): Nyeah I wish my parents were less strict and allowed me to go overseas with my friends. ):
Oh sexaye (your new code name but still v obvious what not meh?!) new semester is gonna start soon! Mugging sessions to start yo! :D I got a feeling I will like my IT class hehhhh OB classmates ((:
20110119
♥ When you do nothing at all.
Four consecutive days of lazing around at home.
On saturday, I met up with Lissya and Saniah before Saniah flew back to the States. Mac breakfast followed by Island Cremery. 2 hours of chitchat was never enough to compensate for the few months of not seeing each other. But, this is better than nothing I guess. Especially when I haven't managed to meet up with Gwen.
On sunday, I guess my body finally decided that it's time for a rest after one week of two camps and another week of non-stop going out for every single day. Woke up with a really terrible sore throat on Sunday and I really couldn't swallow anything. Fever on Monday and Tuesday and it's still on and off. Cough and flu today, which explains why I've been at home for the past four days. It sucks being sick arghhhhh. Get well soon Lizhu! (:
Amidst everything, yesterday was the day of results' release. I honestly felt like it was receiving of Alevels results all over again, and this kind of anxiety was made worse because I didn't put in the same amount of effort as I had previously. When you know you didn't do your best, you start to worry, and you've no excuse to say that it's alright even if the results did not turn out well, because you jolly well know the amount of effort you've put in is negligible to others.
I used fever/not feeling well as an excuse to sleep before 12am on the day before results' release. While others camp at their computers trying to know their results, I was flipping around in bed, trying to fall asleep, trying not to think too much. Guilty conscience at work. Woke up at 9am the next day and continue drifting in and out of sleep, just refusing to get out of bed, because that means it's time to check my results.
I was caught in a dilemma. To check or not to check. What if I didn't reach my own expectations? Ahhh, but what if I do? (Time to party and have fun and celebrate.) But then again, WHAT IF I DON'T?! That possibility of not doing well seems to outweight that of me doing well. Having some internal struggle for a while before deciding to check my results.
Overall, it was okay. Wouldn't say I'm satisfied because one/two modules fell short of my expectations, and it's not just one grade's difference.
I still believe in striving high in the sense that if I aim for the moon and I fail to get it, I will still get the stars. I guess, this is just a start, and much more continuous effort is required for the following 7 semesters. Saying is easy, doing is not arghhhh.
有时候,现实的状况逼得我们必须向前进。很多人,很多事,都只好放弃。
20110114
♥
This week seemed to fly past really fast! I guess, good times are like that. It is a way to know that you are enjoying the company. (:
I haven't had a proper dinner at home for really long ever since 2011 started! I think I only had 2 or 3 dinners at home because I'm totally enjoying my holidays!!! :D Don't wanna school to start, but honestly, I'm broke already LOL. I didn't even know where my money went to, I didn't even feel like I bought much clothes. ):
Monday was portfolio meeting with my fellow biz mags. (: Okay I've already talked about that.
Tuesday was Kbox with Shuyi Lilin Jingmin Zihan and Peisi. :D My usual Kbox clique yayyyys! Haven't been to Kbox for really long and the $6 nett promotion was around so it's like a must for us to go so yay! I enjoyed the kbox session and the monopoly deal after that at Lilin's house! (:
Wednesday was dinner at Timbre with Antonio and Chai! :D So glad that we've been meeting up rather frequently ever since 2010, probably because Antonio is in army now and is really free that's why the frequent meetups! Must get Cheryl out soon, she has disappeared from the surface of the earth!! D: And yes, I drank a little, but it's only cocktail luh. It's quite funny looking back at how far we've gone. 8th year of friendship and counting! (:
And yesterday, I met Yingling Yuewen Rubin Melissa and Lao-da to go find out the costs of our vday products! :D Yayyyys DrumZout has a booth for vday stuff! Really cute, because I went down to choose the products hahah! So those attached (and single and jioing someone/ just single) please please please get some stuff from DrumZout as part of our canvassing! :D I can't promise you special promotions because this meant that I've to take the money out from my own pocket LOL but well, I can be eternally grateful to you?! Does that sound like a good enough deal? :P And meeting after that so we hopped onto Lao-da's VROOM VROOM, and off we went to school. What a bumpy ride and we were such a road hazard but wells. (: Dinner was at Can A with some other people and then meeting was as usual. Hahah 'MY PROBLEM' was flying across the room and it was quite funny revealing about DrumZout camp and all the silly stuff we did and the mess we created LOL. Ended meeting surprisingly early at about 930pm so off we go for supper at Bukit Timah!! (: In the end, there was no transport again so once again, Lao-da has to sacrifice and send me home! I'M SO SORRY. ):
Today was kbox with DrumZout people! Second Kbox in a week. Hmphhhhhhh the others were like late for almost one freaking hour!!!! Omg the $6 nett is only three hours luh what you want people! Wasted!! ): After Kbox we lagged around and went to the arcade. Gosh 2hours and we spent 50bucks there?! :/ WTH WTH WTH. The tapping card system is evil! You just kept tapping your card away without realising how much you've spent tsktsk.
P.S. Why does no one want to take neoprints with me?! ): Isn't it good to do what we all did when we were young again!
On a sidenote, I predict a very boring last week of school holidays, with the only few things to look forward to being Pendra's Ubin trip, Parade down Orchard Road, and probably Rom's bday celebration?! (And the most possible reason for this lack of activities is because I really have no money already. DAMN UPSET!) I gave up organising Rowan outing, because I got so irritated with the lack of response. I will try again next time?!
20110111
♥ We are one big family.
Today is the 11th of January. First 10 days of January has been nothing but awesome and fun! ABCD clique meetup on 2 Jan, followed by DrumZout camp from 3-6 jan, followed by CAC FOC Seniors' Camp from 8-9 Jan, and biz mag portfolio meeting on 10 Jan.
The rest of the week spells nothing but fun too. Kbox in less than 2 hours (which means I'm gonna be late AGAIN) with the usual kbox clique! (: Meetup with Chai and Antonio tomorrow! DrumZout meeting plus suppliers on Thursday, followed by Kbox with DrumZout on Friday! :D
CAC FOC Seniors' Camp ended on Sunday 9 Jan!
I was in Group B, aka Bopeep! Group name was inspired by the Korean song Bopeep by T-ara! Heheh needless to say, our cheer was the chorus of the song! :D Group A's name was funny - Alex! And Group C's Chicken, and Group D's Dynamite!
Group C was crazy because they had Josiah, Alex, Shan, Ziyuan, Melissa all in one group so there was the DrumZout craze LOL. Basically, the camp started off a bit low in energy and everything and DrumZout people were the ones talking nonstop. Heh but after a while, everyone got pretty high in energy. :D Of course, because we had Yongsiang and Trent in our group LOL!
First day of camp was as usual, it was like station games and stuff. We tested the station games and gave feedback etc. The night was SP initation. Gosh why do I have to go through it again?! Anyway, the devils aka Yongsiang Jianbin Yingling were all not blindfolded so they wreck havoc by trying to draw on our faces. O.o Shan's line was classic : 不要画我的脸,我靠脸吃饭的!Gosh 她讲得出口,我都听不下去! Hahah and I was successfully in stopping all of them from drawing on me by saying 我对你这样好,你不要这样对我啦!
Anyways, my legs turned numb from sitting down too much. Even the games were conducted sitting down! My SP Qingzhong and I were totally sian-ed. 'Cause no one really bothered about us!!! Ended the whole thing past midnight and we got to HSS lounge close to 2am. And Yongsiang says he wants to go to Ahfang, which was apparently Ahlian's sister LOL. So Bopeep dragged our tired bodies to Ahfang! On the way there, Shan called and said they (Ziyuan Alex Yingling Jos Shan) are walking to Jos' room to HTHT. Wah faints, I kind of wanted to go but then were too tired to walk there alone and stuff so when Bopeep got back, I taught them Slapjack, we played for a while and I fell asleep!
Next day was at Sentosa. Vanessa and Canida are both hard to wake up gosh. Beach games were more fun yays! :D But was upset that I was inconvenient to go down to the water. ): So missed out on some stuff, like I totally wanted to play the polo girls game but your body will be half submerged in water. (Maybe for me, it's 3/4 submerged so I cannot go in at all.) :/ Anyways, the thing will end off with everyone being thrown into the water right?! I was inconvenient to go down and Trent and Yongsiang totally understood my situation, they wanted to turn me over and dip my head into the water?! WTH WTH WTH resisted for damn long but there's no use. ): In the end, they brought the sea to me and I bent over and Junyang and Youguan poured a pail of water over my head. Thanks ahhh, I was all wet!!!! But fun :DD
Ended off the day by going for dinner after we break camp and then returned home to sleep from 9pm all the way to 12pm the next day!!
Biz mag meeting was at Watami yesterday! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD Shiok spent 21 bucks but I feel damn happy to eat at Watami again. :D Our first physical meeting, more bonding to come yo! :D
20110107
♥ DrumZout is love! ♥
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DrumZout camp was an awesome way to start 2011! :D Another event to add to a lifetime worth of memories! (: And I officially got to know people like Ruowei, Cuiyun, Vanessa, Cyan, Hanpin, Nick whom I haven't had the chance to properly know before. It was a good bonding session! :D
Day 1Day 1 started off with us slacking around and doing nothing. Alright, I do feel guilty thinking about it 'cause I have done nothing constructively. :X Anyways, spent some time brainstorming about what to do for performance night but did not manage to come to a conclusion.
Then, someone proposed a random idea of having a BBQ and HTHT-ing at the same time. So off they go to get food! Too much food opps!! What a waste. Anyways, I touched the eww-so-disgusting raw prawns and chicken wings. ): ): ):
While the others packed up, Melissa Yingling Canida Shan Yuewen and I went back to CAC room to get our luggage and then delivered the rest of the luggage to the rest. Eugene's awesome car saved the day yo! (: Did we break a record?! We had 8 people in the car! Eugene was driving and Ziyuan was at the front seat as well then there were 6 girls behind! Camwhored on the car and my face is in every other picture hahah, but at least my face still smaller than Ziyuan's! :D
HTHT-ing was in Josiah's hotel-look-alike room. Truth and dare were urm... Okay hahah let everything stays within that four walls of Josiah's room okay. And that begins the first night of drinking. As usual, Cancan and I refused to touch the alcoholic drinks so we had plain water instead. ): The tribal council aka Josiah was damn lame!! HTHT was till 4am gosh and because HSS lounge was unavailable due to some reasons, Cancan and I stayed at Lixuan's room! Yay I got the whole bed to myself! :D
Day 2Started off the day by meeting with the rest at 1130am. Shiok! Slept till 10am :D Cancan is damn hard to wake up and whatever she said does not make any sense hahah! Opps shan't say too much before she leaks out my bad sleeping habits.
Lunch was quite hilarious. We played 'Angel and mortal' and all those who haven't done three good things for their mortals start to panick and then all of a sudden, you see watermelons going everywhere! Everyone started buying watermelons for each other hahah but my awesome angel got me a whole fruit platter instead!! :D Fruit stall has awesome business that day!
Then it was percussion practice that day. ): I'm having such a hard time trying to get the right beat. ): Upset ): Anyways, some of the music were really cool hahah! Yays our DrumZout pails sound really good :DD And I taught the girls Gee's chorus for our performance night!
Following which was preparation for feel-good-about-yourself night! Hahah it was quite something like SP night?! We really should have applied for SDU funding LOL. Anyways, I was really excited knowing that we reserved seats at Watami but boohoos ): Because we were late and were kind of afraid that our reservation would have been cancelled by the time we went to Watami so we had dinner at Fish&Co at JP instead! While waiting for food to arrive, I went shopping with Yingling and Mavis :DD
After dinner, we went to Modiva. And that was the second night of drinking. Gosh as usual, being non-drinkers, Canida and I were drinking really diluted coke or something. And some cranberry juice which people claimed had no alcohol but I clearly tasted it but well, I drank it anyway but with tons of ice LOL! In the end, Canida resorted to drinking iced water, it tasted nice too LOL! Cabbed back to school and was so shagged we didn't go for second night of canvassing but just fell asleep once we bathed.
Day 3Day 3 began with Mac breakfast with the girls! :D Yays McGriddles is yummy, miss it so much! :D And then, started off by heading straight to Nanyang House but because the guys drank too much the night before and couldn't wake up in time, the girls decided to practise for our performance night instead! Couldn't learn the rest of SNSD's dance in time since I only knew Gee so we just dumped in Nobody and Sorry Sorry as well as Abracadabra! Yuewen was our live MP3 player :DDD
Percussion practice started off with me and Yuewen and Shan undergoing intensive training under Ziyuan Hanpin and John because we couldn't get the beat right!!! And then we went into different groups trying to play our own piece. Nice luh why I get the hard ones. Now more practice for me! ):
Then went to play some games! Captain's ball and Ultimate frisbee! Ultimate frisbee is damn funnnnn 'cause I was at least useful enough to catch something hahah. Captain's ball is fun too luh (: It's my all-time favourite game! Playing in the rain was awesome too. :D Oh and the random baby around then was really cute :DDDD
Showered, have dinner together and then it was performance night! Hahah our DrumZout guys are so talented! Guitar, piano and drums are nothing to them okayyy! Hahah had some live singing session. Some songs played were 晴天,说了再见,Forever love,天天夜夜,Soul sister, I'm yours and not forgetting the rock version of 新不了情! :DDD Hahah too awesome :D That's why everyone better respond to the Kbox outing invitation and let's go and sing our hearts out!! (:
Angel and mortal revealation hahah!! It was quite funny. My angel Max was ultra nice!! Richest angel in DrumZout! He gave me a Starbucks tumbler and a Starbucks voucher of a drink of my choice and that two were only one good thing that he did for me!!!! Gosh gosh gosh I feel so guilty! I hope I've been a good enough angel to Pak!! :D
Officially break camp at 1130pm but half of us stayed on for an unofficial continuation of camp. Once again, third night of drinking. We got the HSS lounge like finally! And then Josiah started this 'MY PROBLEM?!' and 'YOUR PROBLEM?!' and 'DON'T MAKE YOUR PROBLEM MY PROBLEM!' thing which irritated the hell out of him. Shouted at him but like he cared -.- I was seriously irritated!! I wasn't faking it to entertain people okayyy. In the end, I gave up and went to sleep after I managed to stay awake till Mac delivery arrived and I ate some Mcnuggets. (:
Fell asleep at about 3am and woke up at about 530am by those who were still HTHT-ing and the topic was so 劲爆 I just had to listen to it! Woke up to HTHT with them but alas, all fell asleep except for Max but at 6am I decided to let him sleep so I sat there alone waiting for people to wake up but I fell asleep myself LOL. Woke up at 8plus and left with Ziyuan Canida Josiah John Nick Max and we had breakfast before leaving but John and Nick went back hall first!
Ended camp unofficially by taking bus home with Ziyuan and Canida while Josiah went back to hall and Max cycled home. I thought Canida alighted at the wrong stop! She usually don't alight there but anyways, alighted soon after at Pioneer while Ziyuan continued the ride to Boonlay. Fell asleep at about 2pm after I bathed and stuff and only woke up at 7pm! Slept at 1am and today, I only woke up at 11am. Goshhhhh.
Now it's time to replenish my energy for Senior Camp tomorrow! :DDD
20110102
♥ And my new year begins...
It's 2011!
A new year, a new beginning alright. (:
As promised, I will try to stop backing out at the very very last minute. Countdown was with 4H peeps at Lilin's house but me being me, I backed out few hours before. And I heard people saying 'aiyah as expected luh' when Lilin told them I'm not going anymore. UPSET! ): Didn't know I've such a glorious record of backing out hmmm.
Yesterday was the first day of new year, so I thought it's good to get more more more clothes and bags and shoes and stuff to last me for this new year. Opps excuses yeah I know. But Bugis Street is so disappointing. And not to mention, hot and stuffy. And the auntie refused to cut a single dollar for a bag that I wanted to get, so I refused to buy it. Being the superstitious person I am, I left house after 1pm because 11am-1pm was supposedly the unlucky time slots for yesterday. I mean must start the year right right?! Not much lucky things happened though, except that I saw Haden Hee! :DDDDD Really good looking, goshhhh.
And today was meetup with clique - Steph Lilin Peisi. Ohmans miss Steph and Peisi so so much! Haven't really seen them for so long. Yays had fun teasing Steph :DDDD Hahah heh wondering how funny it would be if Steph really ended up with *ahem* someday despite her strong objections that they are impossible! And then shopped around a bit with Steph and Peisi while Lilin left. OMGG, honestly Peisi and Steph has different tastes with me!! Hahah I wanted to get a pair of shoes, and whatever they like and whatever I like are never really the same!
Oh and we met Jiamin too! Haven't seen her for a long long time too! When is she going to introduce her boyf to me? ): I really want to meet her boyfriend!! (:
And tada~ I'm off to pack for DrumZout camp! :D First camp of the year yo!