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Seeing the sunshine at its most beautiful form.

I think I need to get away from the city, to somewhere quiet. Somewhere peaceful, somewhere whereby I can see how pretty the sun is. Somewhere closer to nature. Where should I go?

Somebody told me I sound like a 70-years-old lady, haha.

I need to go and swim, and enjoy the quietness underwater.

Something is missing. I need something more. But I don't know what.

I don't feel like I'm living a meaningful/purposeful life. When I was studying, I told myself, okay I MUST study so that I can get good grades, and then I'll have the right to talk about a meaningful life. And now that I've gotten decent enough grades, gotten into a course I've chosen, then what's next?

I don't feel like I'm leading life the way I want it. But I told myself, how else can Alevel graduates live a purposeful life besides those who are relief teaching & hence, sort of making a difference in people's lives? But after my graduation, what else will I do? I think I've to consider all these. I need a career that makes a difference to society/at least someone. I need to bring a smile to people. I need something more than just hiding in my own room, doing my own things, unless of course all these lead to the greater good of Mankind.

Not trying to be some famous scientist or life-saving doctor or something like that. Even something small, but not something rather meaningless like receptionist. (sorry maybe I'm just biased against receptionists now.) Actually I really hate how I've no goals in life. With friends venturing into engineering, and me wanting to take up environmental engineering but have no guts to do so, because I'm just not too sure if that is what I wanted.

I will still stick to my dream of a wedding planner, because then I'll be someone who witnesses people's joy, and in return, brings joy to them as well.

Aiyah, how come the grass is always greener at the other side? Whatever options I have, seems to always pale in comparison to others', haha.

P.S. Can you see the colour difference in the photo?

Blogs ain't the in thing right now right. Who updates frequently? And how many still reads my blog faithfully haha. I always run out of blogs to read when I'm bored, so I thought if I demand people to update frequently, I should do it too.

Recently, people have been telling me that my hair is long, haha! Aww but I still don't think that it's long enough eh ): I'm still waiting for it to grow longer before I do my curls. Meanwhile, maybe I should go for some treatment and see if my hair quality will improve. My hair quantity has dropped significantly after Aristal because Abang pulled my hair so tightly!!!!! I'm glad I'm not bald. Haha okay okay I should be more appreciative. I take back my words.

I met up with Saiful and Edmund over lunch yesterday. Thank you guys for coming all the way down! (: It was a really short lunch, but there was so much laughter. :D

What else what else? Thank gawd for this long weekend, I love slacking at home. Have been watching dramas and dramas! FULL HOUSE :D

Anyway, anyone want to catch a movie? I haven't stepped into the cinema for 3.5 months?

Oh yes, before I end off, presenting to you the adventure me and Hwarng had last Sunday. I'm seeing her so often gosh, I'm getting sick of seeing her (HAHA OPPS JUST KIDDING K)

Short update now! (Since I'll be watching dramas once I reach home from work.)

Currently watching Full House. Yes it's an old show but still awesome anyway. Have more more more dramas to watch : Personal Taste/Personal Preference, Oh my lady, Cinderella's Sister. Oh yes, there are all Korean dramas. :P

Will quit by end June, if my bosses allow. There's no contract whatsoever anyway, if I were irresponsible enough, I can just walk out this minute and never come back. (No I should do it after I get my pay for the month.) My irritating colleague is driving me crazy! She thinks she is the world, sorry ah, to me, she's just one of the many old and single and cranky ladies I see on the street. *Prays that I better marry myself off before 30, I never want to be like her.*

*Rolling my eyes continuously* The thought of her just makes me boil with anger ahh! Anyway, I thought that Mummy wouldn't like the idea (and I don't too because it means 1k less for me to spend ): ) but she actually supported me, I'm really touched. (:

I want to go Taiwan with S21 peeps! (: Hopefully we all can! If not somewhere else near is fine with me too, though I feel that TW will be X 100000000000000 more fun :D

Looking at my own reflection from the mirror, I think I need to get some makeup products, desperately and seriously. I don't understand why dark eye circles and eyebags stick with me despite me faithfully sleeping at 11plus every night. And it's time for me to start getting use to makeup right?

I'm going back to crash dance once dance practices restart! Ms Khoo said I couldn't dance for YOG! ): Even though I promised her I will smuggle in and never ever let them discover that I've graduated, but still no. ): I need some exercise btw, I'm just growing and growing horizontally, not vertically.

Can't wait for school to start. It's gonna be so awesome to be a student again! :D Oh yes I'm officially a NBS student already. Accepted the offer yesterday, didn't take quite long though since I decided on NTU months ago. Now, I'm hoping they see my love for the school and give me the scholarship luh zzz.

Yah yah I said I'll change the blogskin. Give me a few more days? Make that a few more weeks maybe. Yay long weekend ahead, can't wait! (:

Too many people to meet, too many memories to catch hold of, too much love to give, but never enough time!

How long have I not sit back and relax?

Even after I stopped studying, working is still sort of like a chore. Dragging myself to work, and not having the time to sit back and relax. Can't imagine this kind of life for the next few decades of my life. Does not sound fun. ):

Week has been rather horrible. Cannot complain enough of her. 2 more months, how am I going to survive!

Anyway, yesterday was a mad rush! I rushed to Cdans (obviously I was late again). After that, we rushed to Jinghui's birthday party! Yay Jinghui's 20! Woah~ haha cannot imagine myself being 19 in a few months' time. So close to 20 soon, and I still feel so childish argh.

Today was a laid back day. Woke up at 10plus opps! Exercised a little because I feel that I'm growing fat yucks. Then ran off to meet Gwen for lunch. I love spontaneous and random meetups with Hwarng. She's just so ON! (provided I can contact her & she's free.) I brought her to a really ulu Mac's (which I always frequent when RV was at the commonwealth campus) and she kept insisting she feels like she's in a zoo. We sat down and chatted for slightly over 3hours?! And then she went around scaring the turtles in the pond before we took some photos and went off.

Proceeded on to the library. Cannot express how much I love being at the library. Dumped Gwen and made her find her way to the MRT herself, but of course with my awesome directing skills, she found it and made her way home safely. Reached home, read a book, bathed, ate dinner. And I watched 'Full house'. AS AWESOME AS THE BOOK (:

I'm blogging randomly. I wished I had smth more sophiscated to blog about so that I seem more intellectual.

NJC Malay Dance is invited to perform for YOG! Despite me promising Ms Khoo that I will smuggle in and make sure I do not get found out that I've graduated, I'm still unable to dance. ): Will make my way back every Sat to supervise people. :D When is school starting again? Can't wait. Studying is way better than working, seriously.

Last but not least, happy birthday to Zhengpin, Xueli, Jinghui! :D

Yeah yeah will change blogskin soon. (:

This week has been full of ups and downs. I guess all I could say is that life is never smooth sailing. I think I'm too used to getting what I want, and when I couldn't, I can't take it.

Someone told me that I should learn to not take things for granted. True, but as humans, we tend to focus on what we miss out, instead of what we have gotten. Being human, I made the same mistake.

I'm not a religious person so I've no God to pray to. But I do pray, to some angel maybe? It makes me feel more calm and stuff. I pray that I should stop moaning and get on with life. Afterall, it's not like the end of the world.

Which reminded me that I'm thankful to have friends who were there for me. (: At times like these, thank you for being there! :D Who replied WHAT WHY?! to me immediately when I told them I'm upset. Who told me that I can call them even late at night. Who called me 3 times but failed to reach me because my phone batt died. Who would do anything to make me feel better. Thankyou! :D So blessed to have you guys around!

Anyway, I've always been wanting a Zip around wallet or a Flap over wallet. And recently, I liked these.




Okay but they are all branded goods which is easily 200, 300 dollars. So unless you're rich and want to get me a present, if not, I don't think I will ever own them. Anyway, no harm staring and admiring! :D

Oh yes oh yes recently I know that companion has been rather close with Javin! :D Haha I made her say that she will introduce us together someday when she has the chance! So from companion, I actually got to know more abt Javin! He's going NUS biz but a year later ): But I'll secretly support his biz. Silent fan :D

Enough said, I'm tired.

P.S. I shd have gone to MD outing uninvited. Looks fun! ):

Finally sort of settled with all the university stuff. Applications and interviews and whatever not. I have yet to accept any course but have settled on NTU I guess. In case anyone is interested, talk to me, I will let you know more I guess. Than to share it out with everyone here.

Well for just now, I would say I did my best. That should be all I'm concerned about right? Shall not keep my hopes up.

Gwen Hwarng came over to my house just now. Really spontaneous and random. I met her for lunch and stuff and suddenly she was at my house. She disturbed the MD people and then used my account on FB to say 'I love Gwen Hwarng' which received many comments from fellow dancers. I would say, why is my status only receiving such popularity with the mention of Ms Hwarng?! Haix can life be even more pathetic?

Anyway Lissya note that I'm disappointed in you. ):


Oh yay will be watching Korean Drama Full House soon! Read the book eons ago which was awesome and have been wanting to watch the drama and Lissya happened to have the DVD. Hence, after borrowing You're Beautiful DVD from her and returning it back to her already, I borrowed Full House! :D Yay yay!

A few things I need to get done:

- Organise clique's dinner again.
- Orgainse senior dancers' meetup.
- Discuss with s21/dancers that I want to go for overseas trip!
- Shop for many people's bday gifts.
- And I must phone Sharon for lunch someday.

For now, that's all. Am really tired today I wonder why. Off to sleep bye! :D Oh yes I will be changing my blogskin soon?!

Aristal 2010 ended on Wednesday!

I attended College Day Award Ceremony today receiving a CCA Award for Malay Dance.

All I want to say is thank you NJMD! Not for all the awards and stuff that add to a nice portfolio, but for giving me love and care and concern throughout these years. For allowing me to have something to look forward to everyday. For allowing me to have a CCA which I am proud to be from. For simply just allowing me to be a NJC Malay Dancer, having such awesome CCA mates and awesom teachers-in-charge. For simply adding laugher and joy to my life.

Took two leaves on Tuesday and Wednesday. It was camwhoring and more camwhoring on both days. No reception for most of the day because the dressing rooms were underground (I forgot all about it!) That means I was cut off from the world for most of the time unless I go to the washroom (which is the only place that can receive certain amount of reception). And I do not mind this kind of disconnection from the world, really. As long as I'm with the ones I really treasure.

I wouldn't say I'm exactly awesomely excited. Afterall, I played a minor role in this year's Aristal. Only had a few practices from what I remember. But what made me really touched is that juniors continue this family spirit that we have and will continue to pass down to future batches of juniors. And that they made me feel that although I'm a thing of the past, I have never really left the family all along. Had gotten many many notes from them and pictures flooding my Facebook tells me that despite everything, I'm still loved. (:

Life is really good with just dance and dance only. Nothing else but dance. Just like what Joycelyn has said before, because dance brings me to another world where I can simply lose control over my mind and let it flow with the people and the music. Okay, if I were successful one day, after my dream of opening up a wedding planning services centre, please do not be surprised that the next centre I would open is a dance school.

I wish I could continue dancing. This may not be my last Aristal. For all you know, I will come back next year, the year after and many years later. Till my bones start to crack even when I do warmup on hemstring. Because once a dancer, always a dancer. And nothing else expresses this better than the picture below.


And Joycelyn has said this in the email too. Whenever I tell people that I'm from Malay Dance, they will ask me ' Why Malay Dance? Why not Western or Chinese Dance? Or for that matter, why not Indian Dance?' Have never been able to give a good answer. Angela definitely sort of plays a part in bringing me into Malay Dance. Going to trial practices does not make me feel obliged to continue to stay in NJMD. So why NJMD? It's just fate, really. Sometimes I wonder why I did not IP-ed into NJ, then I'd join NJMD earlier, then I'd have spent 2 more years in NJMD. But then again, if I had done that, would I join NJMD then? Not just because there was no Angela to pull me in or what, but somehow. Everything just happens for a reason.

I could never feel blessed enough. Awesome CCA, I always tell my friends. And I could never do enough or say enough to express how much I love NJMD. Actions speak louder than words. The only way which I can do so is to be there everytime NJMD needs me. A sense of pride beems within me when I walked up the stage today. The GOH said 'Wow it's so rare to see a Chinese in Malay Dance." I smiled. GOH: "Do you enjoy it?" Me: "Yes, I enjoy it a lot." Thank you NJMD, without you, I wouldn't have been what I am today.

Yes I seriously think I'm going crazy.

Lissya has such a great influence on me. Haha I used to hate how much she loves Korean stuff and now I'm gradually becoming a Korean addict, all thanks to Nurlissya Binte Suwandi. OHMY WHAT EXACTLY IS HAPPENING TO ME?

Basically, the Korean drama 'You're Beautiful' is nice, but I still thought that Autumn's Concerto is nicer. Basically, the songs inside You're Beautiful are all so nice. So I'm like listening to Korean songs everyday now. And yes, there's still the song 'Since you're a man' starring Kim Hyun Joong. His smile is definitely awesomely nice, but that's it haha. He's too pretty boy for me. I hope I can show a killer smile like his on Aristal night! Aristal = dance, fun, laughter & camwhoring! :D

Oh yes what else? Basically I'm updating because I have some loyal readers out there who reads my blog constantly. Haha and I'm sure Lissya will come to my blog more often once I sink deeper into all these Korean stuff and blog about it.

My day has been alright. Nothing exciting. Just humming to some songs, watching some TV programmes and going to the library. LOVES LIBRARY! :D Oh yes besides Korean songs, I'm recently into Karen Mok's old songs too HAHA.

Yup, I've also decided to make my blog more interesting hence there'll be pictures in every blog post. (if I can find.) Today, I shall upload this picture, I like it a lot and it's my desktop wallpaper. That's all for today, a week of exciting stuff awaits. :D

Oh yes can't wait for College Day Award Ceremony! (:


Till then.

Overall, the whole week ended on a happy note. :D

I will skip the boring things. Bosses are back from business trip, which means less slacking around and more moving around now. Which is not too bad too. Having things to do is better than having nothing to do.

A few exciting events:

• Aristal tech run! : D
• Clique dinner! : D
• New lunch partner! : D
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Point 1, Aristal tech run on Wednesday! Missed the principal vetting on Monday. Well basically I ran off from work at 548pm when I end work at 6pm (opps, I only did this once okay and I was really in a rush.) Missed the 174 bus argh but luckily bus ride was smooth without any jam hence it took only about 15-20mins. Reached NJ at 630pm and rushed to change and stuff. Basically forgot steps despite recapping beforehand. Mind blanked out for 2s during the dance and at the end of it all, I can only say that I'm utterly upset that I had such bad performances. Am getting stressed because I cannot go for any other practice already and the next practice I will get is Tuesday during full dress rehearsal. Hope self practice and perfecting of steps help! Aristal in 4 days, get excited! : D

Point 2, I found a new lunch partner! Samantha Lim! : D Haha well basically she works at Somerset and I work at the end of Orchard Road. Not exactly far but we can meet once or twice a week for lunch in the middle like Wisma Atria? So excited to meet her for lunch. Will meet starting next week! : D

Point 3, clique dinner was awesome! : D Had lots of fun and laughing till my stomach ache haha and dinner was superb! All thanks to my recommendation! Food reviews will be done by Peisi on her blog I guess? Haha, it's been 2 months since we met to catch up?! Haha so we kind of forgot a lot of things like they forgot how I go rounds and rounds before getting to the main point etc. And Lilin's lameness. And Steph's fashion sense got a lot better, she became prettier too! (: Basically people, go to Watami! Haha it's an awesome place to catch up and stuff I guess.

Point 4, haha shall be mysterious a bit. Will update more about this when the time is right HAHA. Now this is sounding interesting right? (: Haha please don't be thinking what you're thinking, it's 99% wrong.

Anyway, I saw this picture on KY's blog haha. And stole it opps! I thought it's a lovely picture, I just had to post it here. I am contemplating using it as part of the blogskin.

With that, I will end this post. Thank you for all that's happening, I feel blessed. Oh yeah I just got pay haha, now more dates to come. :D