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♥ Mixed feelings.
Results will be out tomorrow. In about 26hours' time, I will know it.
I know everyone's blog is about results now. It's like everyone's nightmare. Was it that bad when we received the O's? At least not for me. The day I got back O's results, I was terribly upset, because A01 has to split up soon. This time round, I'm really scared, because I've been having multiple nightmares (is it considered a nightmare) about getting back grades like AADDD and BBCDD or something along that line.
We aim high so that if we happen to fall, we aren't that low. I aimed for AAAA for the main four H2 and B for GP. Because I know A for GP is totally not realistic for me. Judging by by prelims results, and my previous results, A for physics is actually unrealistic too because I've never scored past a E for physics in my two years of JC education. But I really mugged like crap for physics this time round.
Sharon told me the other time, the only certainty amidst all these uncertainties is the effort you put into everything. I did my best but is my best enough. Nevertheless, results have been confirmed days and weeks and months ago, the only thing I can do now is to believe in myself. No more regrets because I've done all I could, but it gets a little saddening if I happen to not do well.
I want to bring glory to Malay Dance, to be one of the straight As scorers Mrs Tan can claim proudly to be her malay dancers. I want to get into a course I really love. I want to make my parents proud. I want to prove to myself that a lot of things are possible, if you're willing to put in effort to make it possible. I want to let the teachers know that their efforts have not come to waste. There are so many people I don't want to disappoint.
How things go, I cannot determine. But I can determine how I behave after that. If I were to go party everyday from being too happy after that, I think no one would stop me. But if I were to sit there and cry, I think I will look down on myself too. All in all, I believe in myself, tomorrow will be a good day (:
So, be positive everyone! I know we cannot help but to get worried, but if that's our best (which I'm sure it is) then just smile tomorrow. I don't wish to see any tears tomorrow, definitely not from myself nor from my friends.
