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♥ Little things make a great day :D
I will divide my post today into two. Because there's too much to be condensed into one post. And people will complain that I'm writing essays again. Seriously, but I wonder who still goes around reading blogs now. But that wouldn't stop me from posting too.
Anyway Mum's nagging again about jobs. It's not as if I'm not looking hard enough or I've not applied enough (though I admit I'm picky about jobs) but rather they just don't call me up and I really can't do anything, can I? If I've their numbers I'd have rung them up immediately! And recruitment agencies will be my last resort. But seems like I've to use my last resort soon LOL because job hunting for slightly over half a month but not much progress. Oh yes and Mum nags at me for adding to the already high electricity bills. OH WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!
Anyway, besides all these nagging, I'm enjoying my slacking around time and stuff. And I've received an EAGLES award :D (for outstanding achievement) It's 200 bucks okay. The last time I got it in P4 it was still 120bucks only. But it's not just the cash award, the fact that everything pays off feels good :D
And since the year is ending soon, let's round up my JC life (the CCA part). These 2 years, NJC Malay Dance has presented me with a lot of different opportunities in terms of leadership roles and performances. I'm really glad for all that happen, seriously. First, they give me a really loving and supportive FAMILY! They honed my skills to be an adaptable individual (yes vietnamese, scholars and IPs and malays too.) Next, they gave me lots of opportunities to dance, and to dance out my very best. Some things I learn in Malay Dance which I think I will never forget. Things like " When we go up on stage to dance, we must put up our very best." and "being different doesn't mean we can't be one."
The seniors were really supportive too, which explains how I can survive in a dance group which bears high expectations from everyone though I am totally inexperienced. My first ever major role also came - the EXCO of malay dance. Am so glad and touched by everyone's willingness to let me give it a try and learn and grow at the same time though I've absolutely no prior experience in it, and also the belief in me and the EXCO that we can do it. Sarong dance for CNY and CCA carnival were more different because it was only 4 dancers. Definitely more nerve-wrecking. I remember I was shaking while on stage but it didn't matter. I can't remember how I managed to survive the dance with sarong stuck on my head twice but I did it! (: SYF'09 said it all. Hard work does pay off! :DDDD
Subsequently, I passed down my duties and responsibilities to the next batch, Shairah and Ly. It wasn't an easy transition. It feels like so much have been taken away from me all of a sudden. EXCO outings and meetings did bond us together and I cannot help but recall how I first feel when I had the first EXCO meeting. Everyone was being so natural but I was so uneasy because no one feels familiar to me at all! But all in all, whether our batch is the best or not I don't know, but we've all put in our best for the dance group and I'm truly happy that I've this group of people that adds smiles to my face.
After the step-down, I thought, that's it. No, it's really not the end, but just the beginning. Beginning of all the recognitions of what I've done. Nominated for EAGLES Award (Outstanding Achievements) and receiving the letter that I've been awarded it is just simply awesome. Subsequenly, there was still nomination for College Day Awards and stuff. You know, during all those awards ceremonies and stuff, the actors actresses directors singers whatever not, they keep saying that they're honoured to be nominated already. I always thought it's so fake, obviously people would want to win the award right. I only truly understand how they feel now. Really, winning is just a bonus, being recognised for all your efforts is the best feeling.
Despite already stepping down, NJC Malay Dance has not cast me aside. I have gone back to practices and help out with makeup. Miss Khoo also gave her consent immediately when I told her how much I want to dance for the most recent performance and when I casually ask her if I could dance. Miss Khoo also asked if we want to go back to dance for Aristal next year. We still have lots of chances in front of us, just that we might not know how to make good use of them.
When I returned home from chalet late at night yesterday, another pleasant surprise sprang on me. Have received the Good Progress Award (250 bucks!). Being unable to get the Edusave Merit Bursary Award is a real disappointment (though I know my results aren't good) because I really had put in effort throughout this whole year. But getting the Good Progress Award did help to ease the disappointment. It's like another form of recognition that my efforts have paid off. Especially heartwarming to know that, because surviving through SYF'09 during the J2 heavy workload year is not easy. Definitely not easy with 4 practices each year, and each practice leaving us all drained of energy when we reach home at 9plus PM. And then there's the need to force ourselves awake just to complete the assignments (and I'm not even talking about revision or preparation ahead).
These little things does make a great day :D A total of 450 bucks from both awards did make me feel less broke, though I'm sure I won't be allowed to use them ): But all in all, really, it's just that feeling that efforts (whether in terms of studies or CCA) have been recognised. (Limited vocab how many times have I used this phrase.) Point is, that feeling is awesome! :DDD
Oh yes all outings are pushed back because I was too broke to go out.
