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♥ When you mean what you say.
Currently, I am reading through my past blog posts. One of the posts I typed during December last year. Anyway, you can go to my old blog and read it or something. I find some things that I say then rather inspirational haha.
" Since when was it that I started having so many tears, and wasting them over some people who definitely are not deserving of them. "- Define deserving. I think everything in life has a grey area. Deserving in some sense, unworthy is another. But I guess the whole point is one minute I spend getting upset (whether over deserving people or not) means one minute less being happy.
" And when I look back, I'm grateful for all that has happened, 'cause the bad incidents have taught me how to be stronger and braver, and the happy stories have never failed to make me smile. And all these will stay as permanent evidence that I've gone through so much and grow up (: "- Exactly. I'm glad that everytime I look back, I laugh at how silly I am, smile at whatever wise decisions I make. No matter what I do, I tell myself never to regret. Just like how Lissya said she saw a quote on her calendar : Never regret the path you have chosen.
" And to those who have stood by me all along and watch me grow, thanks a million. I'm thankful that in my past, present and future, there is always you :D "- This year has been a hectic year for me. First, there was SYF which took up most of my time. And then, I have to struggle to re-learn some J1 concepts due to being over slacking. (And am still struggling to get J1 concepts into my mind now.) And then, towards the second half of the year, I become sickly and I kept missing lessons. The dancers, my classmates cum clique mates and those outside-of-school people whom I totally love complaining to, thanks! (:
As A's slowly neared, I really feel the pressure caving in on me. I know I have not put in enough effort for Prelims. It was probably 60%? And considering that I did alright, not splendid but not a disaster too, I am indeed grateful for everything. I think I should be more than contented. But this time round, 100% effort is required. No more coming online for chitchats/facebook/twitter (which I don't really use). Only coming online for KM and KM and KM.
I know blog will be on a hiatus for a long long time. Probably might update again towards the end of October. Meanwhile, if you like, you could spam my tagboard/comments section but I know when I return to this blog, I won't see many things. o.O Why do people hate commenting for me so much huh!
Bye! (: I can't have anymore regrets, not even for mock papers.
