20091024
♥ Mugging will be better.
OMG I actually have nothing much to update on besides mugging. And if you guys know, I actually have the habit of writing diaries and then everyday I run out of things to write because I mugged all day long. (Opps actually I did anything but mugging.) The few days before were more alright, I really mugged! :D I wasted the whole of last week doing nothing.
So, whatever the case, slightly more than 2 weeks left. I really got to buck up and start mugging! There're so many things to look forward to after A's, but I bet I can't enjoy them without feeling that I've done my best for A's.
Oh yes, for the 2nd Dec performance, I bumped into Miss Khoo that day and I casually asked her if I could dance for it and she said YES! Haha, but well, after some discussion with Lissya, we decided that we shouldn't make any promises because I've only got one day to learn a whole new dance and I'm really not confident that I can do it. But rest assured that we'll be there to help with makeup! :D (and hair, maybe, I don't feel like letting my hands reek of hairspray.)
Oh and I've something to tell my dance juniors! ((((:
HEY DANCERS,
You know, we've been always talking about wanting to show the world how great how awesome NJC Malay Dance is right! And then there's SYF and ISSF and SISC, but we only managed to show Singapore, or for the case of ISSF AND SISC, a small part of the world. And for the upcoming APEC performance, you guys are really showing THE WORLD and its leaders! It's so cool, I wish I could be part of it too! ): But anyway, my point is, even though your 8 most awesome leaders are mugging their lives away while you dance to the beat, you guys must still go out there to show them that though they may be great leaders in the field of politics, NJC Malay Dance is the leader in our own field too! :DDDD
Be as awesome as we always are, and I will secretly scream in excitement (within me) during my paper for you guys.
Ok, that sums up what I've been feeling. Can someone post this on the dance blog LOL?
Oh yeah, IPs, how are your assessment week's results? And good luck to the J1s for PW! :D
I can't wait to be able to go for dance related stuff after A's, just that 1 plus month more! (:
20091016
♥ Where all things come together.
Graduation - where all things come together. Don't ask me why I always repeat the title. I mean, it's the main point what! (Oh yeah I just answered what you're not supposed to ask me.)
Anyway, yeah graduation ceremony today. The day started off with a really gloomy assembly and I had a slow stroll with Lissya from the canteen to the parade square?! Hah and talked to Thu, An, Ly, all these juniors that I will miss thoroughly for the next 1.5 months till I see them again. (: Alright, with a wonderful family behind you, I bet the senior dancers can stand all those boring mugging right. And we really want to do NJC Malay Dance proud by achieving whatever good results we can, though it's not dance related stuff.
Graduation ceremony at the hall was well. How do I say? Where are the chairs?! Sitting on the floor isn't a bad thing but oh wait, actually, it is. Anyway, point is, something went wrong and all the malay dancers were worrying 'cause our CCA records are all not there! Hence, there is like lots of running around etc but in the end, got it settled. And hey! I didn't manage to eat any buffet. ): Oh what a waste! Is the food nice though?
Took lots of photos after that. Went to find Ms Lee, Ms Chua, Mrs Poon, Mr Lim and ya and that's about it. Took photos with them! :D Haha I think Mr Lim's photo one damn funny. Cause I was talking to Ms Tey (let's be polite today) after the Physics mock paper. And she dragged and dragged! : P In the end, I went off first. Saw them from afar taking photos and happened to be talking to Jaslin. So told Jaslin I will call back later (which I didn't) and ran all the way there and screamed ONE MORE TIME PLEASE! And realised the cameraman isn't one of us like our classmates luh. UNGLAM GOSH! Anyway, that was the part we managed to gek Masu HAHA!
Gwen Hwarng says she is slaving away now. I don't really care about her. I think she senses that I am paying more attention to blogging than to her hence she hung out. So Hwarng, what am I? The pro at memorizing Malay names?! Actually called me to ask about Lissya's and Hazi's full name! Anyway, that's a lot of lines dedicated to you already Hwarng.
Alright, had class meal. (Since cannot classify under lunch nor dinner) YAY PIZZA HUT AGAIN! :D Laughed a lot seriously. Took funny photos too! :D
I think today is the high-est day I've ever been so far in these few weeks / months of mugging.
20091011
♥ When you mean what you say.
Currently, I am reading through my past blog posts. One of the posts I typed during December last year. Anyway, you can go to my old blog and read it or something. I find some things that I say then rather inspirational haha.
" Since when was it that I started having so many tears, and wasting them over some people who definitely are not deserving of them. "- Define deserving. I think everything in life has a grey area. Deserving in some sense, unworthy is another. But I guess the whole point is one minute I spend getting upset (whether over deserving people or not) means one minute less being happy.
" And when I look back, I'm grateful for all that has happened, 'cause the bad incidents have taught me how to be stronger and braver, and the happy stories have never failed to make me smile. And all these will stay as permanent evidence that I've gone through so much and grow up (: "- Exactly. I'm glad that everytime I look back, I laugh at how silly I am, smile at whatever wise decisions I make. No matter what I do, I tell myself never to regret. Just like how Lissya said she saw a quote on her calendar : Never regret the path you have chosen.
" And to those who have stood by me all along and watch me grow, thanks a million. I'm thankful that in my past, present and future, there is always you :D "- This year has been a hectic year for me. First, there was SYF which took up most of my time. And then, I have to struggle to re-learn some J1 concepts due to being over slacking. (And am still struggling to get J1 concepts into my mind now.) And then, towards the second half of the year, I become sickly and I kept missing lessons. The dancers, my classmates cum clique mates and those outside-of-school people whom I totally love complaining to, thanks! (:
As A's slowly neared, I really feel the pressure caving in on me. I know I have not put in enough effort for Prelims. It was probably 60%? And considering that I did alright, not splendid but not a disaster too, I am indeed grateful for everything. I think I should be more than contented. But this time round, 100% effort is required. No more coming online for chitchats/facebook/twitter (which I don't really use). Only coming online for KM and KM and KM.
I know blog will be on a hiatus for a long long time. Probably might update again towards the end of October. Meanwhile, if you like, you could spam my tagboard/comments section but I know when I return to this blog, I won't see many things. o.O Why do people hate commenting for me so much huh!
Bye! (: I can't have anymore regrets, not even for mock papers.
20091010
♥ Last day.
Last day of school. No special feelings, nothing. I think I am not bonded to the school as much. More bonded to the people. But this doesn't feel like the end yet. I'm still going back to school for consultations, for mock tests and for A's. Maybe the last day of A's will be a gloomy one, because it's really the last day. Maybe graduation ceremony, people will cry.
But no, I don't think I will feel upset. There will still be lots of outings and gathering and meetups after A's. I can finally go back to dance and help out. Though I might not be dancing anymore. I can work and earn money and shop. I can do so many things! But, I might miss mugging. Haha, it has become part of my life.
Okay to celebrate the 4A student from our class, we went to Sakae buffet after school. It was so impromptu! I randomly said I've a strong craving for sushi and then off we go~! Haha I don't think ABCD has ever been so decisive before. As usual, the protagonist (did I use the word correctly?), the 4A person didn't come! -.- Niang came instead but well she's another smart kid too! URGH the world is full of smart people! Anyway, I bet that is one of the few times I ate so little for sakae buffet. But I was damn full because I usually eat a lot of side orders but yesterday I eat quite a lot of sushi. And you know, the rice just makes you so full. Anyway had a great time out yesterday. Too bad no one brought camera along! ):
Mugging, as I've said, I kind of enjoy it now. (Weird sentence structure) And then, yes, I will come up with a mugging schedule to keep to. Didn't put in a lot of effort into CTs and Prelims but for A's, 100% effort must be put in! I'll be Physics' best friend haha. What else, oh yes, KM will be my best friend for the next few weeks. And I will keep to what I say. Hiatus period from Monday onwards. (Except with my best friend KM luh.) So I will update tomorrow and probably the next time I will update is after A's or if I'm a little free, a week before A's or something.
Till then, cya! Oh yes, congrats Nicholas Ang, model essay uh!
20091006
♥ (:
I'm really so WOWed at my own efficiency. I'm doing work that is supposed to be discussed on Friday. Is that fast or is everyone at the same speed as me? OK anyway if I'm just at everyone's pace, PLEASE, don't burst my bubble.
I love talking to Lissya. (: Although the topic wasn't a like happy one, still talking to her makes me feel I don't know. It's just this kind of feeling you know. And you will start smiling when the SMSes come and start frowning when she takes too long to reply and stuff. But aww, my dear, the fact that you told me, made me feel really touched! And we will all work together ok! :D
What else. Twitter finally unsuspended my account! I mean, HELLO, I did nothing anyway. Oh yes plus during Econs lesson today, we talked about network coverage. Oh freak, when is LG Lollipop phone coming out, then I can switch suscribers haha. Well, obviously through non-price competition, Singtel has sort of won me over.
Okok. I'm going to do Phy now. Kind of weird but I actually enjoy mugging now. (: It's good right, when you don't have a choice and are forced to mug, why not enjoy the process of mugging and acquiring more information and knowledge, and knowing that with every passing day, you know a little more.
From Alison's blog, "my stand is that, u cant keep on trying to please everyone. you can only please certain people at a certain time.." (wahlao Alison capitalise the first letter can! Plus fullstop only got one okay!) And yes, though I realised it late, I'm still glad that now I know. Just live life the way you want it, with the little group of people you love. (:
20091004
♥ Mugger life beginning soon.
Okay, sorry for a lot of emo posts recently. I thought a new blog should signify a new start. So wth that my new start started off so badly.
Anyway, I've never felt so accomplished for so long! For the first time in don't know how many months, I did a lot of homework during the weekends! And I completed them! And it's like this weekend got especially a lot of homework but because I've finished them, I rewarded myself by allowing myself to slack a little, thus you see my post now. I'm going on a hiatus soon again, by next Sunday I believe. And this time it's for real. I won't come online every few days to blog already! And this will probably last until end of A's. And yes, though there's a long break between my 2nd last paper (24 nov) and last paper (30nov), I shall mug hard for phy MCQ and not slack then.
Prelims results hasnt been satisfactory. But what can I say?! My one week of Sept holidays has been SUPER unproductive so actually, I should be glad getting what I'm getting for those subjects I've done rather okay in. Phy results is demoralizing me seriously. But Sharon says be positive haha. Right, and then the two of us will repel haha. (NVM it's a little joke between me and Sharon.) Hmm am rather sad that everything is coming to an end soon. Heh I never thought I'll ever talk to teachers like they're my friends eg. in the case of Sharon, Ms Ting, Ms Khoo etc. Heh all my malay dance teachers plus Mr. Low yes! :D
I shan't disappoint Mr. Lim and Sharon. I will get my A for phy yay! (: To SH1s who will probably see my post soon since promos are ending, hope you guys have mugged hard enough for promos and no regrets okay! Gosh I miss dancing so much and you guys. And good luck to the IPs for their assessment weeks! (:
What else what else! Class has been discussing about Prom and Overseas trip. Mummy doesn't seem to want to let me go for overseas trip, and if I can't convince Mummy, I can forget about convincing Pa. SAD! ): I want to go leh! And for prom, don't really feel the excitement to go. I mean, it's not like RV, when we know everyone and prom is oh so fun. But aiyah, don't know luh.
WTH aren't I supposed to be online to come up with a revision schedule?! Ohno! Fine I'll do that tomorrow.
And OMG Aubrey Lee you disappeared into thin air and finally I see some response from you! (:
20091001
♥ (:
I'm doing fine, I really am fine.
Thanks for any concern regarding the previous post. (Alright there aren't much concerns cause I know I said don't ask me. Only dumbdumb Gwen will do it.)
But, to those who are really concerned and didn't know how to speak to me about it etc, I appreciate it and just wanna say that I'm fine. I'm not that strong of course to forget everything immediately. And I don't need/want to pretend that I'm fine. But for every second that I spend feeling down, I wasted every second I could to feel happy. And anyway, every moment that I laugh, I'm really laughing genuinely. So people, I'm fine, really. I just don't know how I'm going to face them next time, like outings etc. But all those things will come later, so let's just not think about it then.
With Lilin back in school, it's much more livelier again! But tsk, how come your lameness drop so much uh! Haiyo, Peisi and Steph are catching up already haha.
Prelims results aren't all out yet. But they sure did not look as satisfactory. ): If you think all along I've already been a mugger (which I don't know where people get that idea from), well let me tell you, I'm going to mug like I-don't-know-what luh for this coming month. Freak luh, how do I get my straight As luh, looking at my current results! ))): Byebye STB scholarship. Well, not that I will get it in the first place, they also offered it to 4-5 people each year! ):
